My relationship
Okay.... I’m going on a limb here but I feel like you guys deserve an explanation.... I’m probably going to regret this later, but its fine, its whatever.
When I finally told you guys that Kinsley was out of my life, she had been out for months I just didn't know where to even start. I got tons of messages checking on me, asking me what happened, asking details and honestly it was overwhelming. I confided and told a lot of you that I miss her and wanted to just run into her arms but then I’m going against everything I believe in. And I didnt wanna be that girl.
A lot of you called me out on it and called me selfish and silly. Why wouldn't you fight for the one you love and miss so much? And finally, here’s the answer.
She hurt me. She crushed me. Yes, she calls me all the time and sends messages on every social media I have. Instrgram, Tumblr, Facebook and texts but I ignore them all. It would be too easy to just click accept when she calls but understand it takes everything I have felt to flip the phone over and walk away. When I went to meet with my family she had been gone but I told them she was busy because if I told them the truth I knew they’d ask questions and I knew it was still too much to even think about, let a lone talk about.
When the triplets turned two months I discovered, ON MY OWN, that Kinsley had been cheating on me and when she “left for modeling gigs” she was with her other family, her husband and two daughters in England. This was heartbreaking especially since when I approached her and told her I knew she had been cheating on me, she came completely clean and told me about her family and husband in England and that there was never any gigs for modeling that she had been claiming.
I was completely heartbroken and crushed. I started throwing her stuff out our front door and I kicked he rout. I talked to her once after that on the phone and I told her to stay away from MY family and leave me alone. I explained how much she really hurt me and how I felt she was “dead to me”. I haven't talked to her in three months now and she still is calling me. I’m literately one text away from blocking her.
Those of you who know me, know I have no one but my sister. Both my parents are gone and Arias the only one I have left. I was so humiliated and distraught of how degrading it was and how gullible I must have been, not seeing the signs....I didn't even tell Aria until a month ago. I laid in my bed all alone and cried myself to sleep for days. I held my babies close, praying that they will never ever got through the pain I’m feeling now from anyone, ever.