#note from rei

[atzeroo]

An Update!

Hi everyone! It's been a long time since my last update and I apologize for the lack of activity on here and for disappearing after promising I would be back. I've figured I should let everyone know why, now that I feel a bit more comfortable where I am.

Long story short, I lost my spark. But I'll update very soon! ˙ᵕ˙

(cw?: some personal talk about mental health)

I have gotten some health updates that made me realize I should take my body (and how I feel) more seriously, and in addition, have been really scared about thinking about my future since I'm graduating soon and feel like I need to properly lock in right now before I regret things.

I'm (unfortunately) very 'avoidant', so I've tried to keep myself happy by ignoring all the worries/concerns that has been building up inside my head and then I just spiraled. I told myself I would update as soon as I felt ready to, and all of a sudden days turned into weeks, and weeks into months and suddenly, I felt scared to open tumblr again.

But if I keep going in circles like this I'm going nowhere and I really want to get back into writing again and enjoy talking to everyone, because that was the reason I started uploading after all.

So with all of this said, I'll go back to updating very soon! I have some stuff I have prepared in the time I have been gone and I hope you guys will look forward to my next update!

Thank you for reading this far and I hope you've been well!

Yours, Rei

[atzeroo]

Haven't uploaded in a while, because this whole Valko situation has been weighting on my mind for weeks - small rant incoming, but also another long-overdue update from me;

Love and Deepspace has been my main inspiration for writing yet since that announcement has been made, I haven't felt happy about writing again at all. Seeing lots of writers leaving the fandom has made me overthink what to do myself, and I have contemplated whether uploading was right when I wasn't feeling right about it myself. (This doesn't mean that I feel a certain way about people who have still been posting; writing is and will always be the perfect outlet for whatever you have on your mind and I will never judge anyone for that!)

Maybe I'm just in the wrong headspace rn; Uni has been stressful and I also haven't been logging in since because the update is HUGE and LADS literally takes up 40% of my phone-

And despite everything, I still like writing for the boys - and maybe one day I will dabble in writing for Valko as well c:

I've decided that I still want to post what I have been saving in my drafts, and take my time finding happiness in writing again. <3

- Rei

(Double upload today, bc it's my birthday and technically also my 1 year anniversary of being on here <3)

[atzeroo]

A big Thank you! and Taglist!

Guys, I don't know what to say, but thank you so much for the warm response on 'For a Moment (You are mine)' ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂)⸝♡ I have been feeling a bit overwhelmed but incredibly happy to know that you all enjoyed reading it and hopefully are looking forward to the next part! I'm dilligently working on it so as to hopefully not make you wait too long (૭ ｡•̀ ᵕ •́｡ )૭

Speaking of, I have gotten some comments asking me to make a taglist, so if you'd like, please leave a comment on this post or send me a ask/message so I can add you to it. Of course, those that have already asked me to, I already got you!

Once again, a big thank you for everyone who has been reading and commenting on my posts and I'm looking forward to see you on my next update!

[atzeroo]

I'm back! ♡´･ᴗ･`♡

My exams are finally over!! Took a couple of days off to recover and get some proper rest in, so I apologize for the lack of updates recently!

I'll be taking my time replying to comments and reblogs, look at what I have been missing out on while I have been gone and then get started on requests!

I hope you all have been well! - Rei

Just barely made it in time for Rafayel's birthday! I'll be uploading something later today 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯

[atzeroo]

small update because i said i was going to be more active and then disappeared again (fics are queued) but i'm currently in the hospital T.T If everything goes right, I'll be home tomorrow or the day after though, I think!

for now, please take a look at this beautiful pastry i got for lunch today :3

[atzeroo]

500 Followers Celebration! ♡ Drabbles requests by atzeroo

I can't believe I'm actually able to say this, but thank you so much for 500+ followers on this blog :') As a little gift from me to you, I want to take Drabble requests from you! Below the cut I have listed a bunch of prompts that you can request from, so pick one and choose one LI and I will do my best to write you something! I'll be taking requests for as long as I see fit and will let you know once they are closed -> General rules apply, please be mindful of your words and give me a little bit of time - other than that, have fun sending something in!🤭 (requesting more than once is ok!)

Prompts list:

❤️ Fluff

"Here take my jacket."

"You're the best thing to have ever happened to me"

"I'd like my good morning kiss right now, please"

"You are so cute when you look at me like that"

"When can I see you again?"

"Are you wearing my shirt?"

First Kiss / Practice Kiss / Kissing as a dare

Secret relationship

💙 Angst

"I wasn't supposed to fall in love with you."

"You were the only good thing, and I ruined it."

"Does all of this mean nothing to you?"

"Why does this feel like a goodbye?"

"I loved you. That should've been enough"

Exes seeing each other again after time apart

Slowly falling out of love

🤍 Hurt/Comfort

"Stay the night?"

"Hey, look at me. I love you, okay?"

"Text me when you get home."

"Do you want me to stay? It doesn't have to mean anything."

"I don't mind when it's you."

"You are more than enough."

"Can we go home?"

💜 Suggestive (maybe smut if I feel brave about it)

"You have no idea how long I've wanted to do this."

"If you are going to stare, you might as well do something about it."

"Come here. Sit."

"Can you help me zip this up?"

"Let me take care of you."

"What are you thinking about?"

Forced proximity

💛 Misc.

Send me a random fic title!

Send me your favorite trope!

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Using this part down here to get a little bit sappy to say that I'm incredibly grateful to anyone that has been reading my fics so far and leaves me so many lovely comments! You are truly appreciated and make me feel so loved in this community and space and I cannot be more thankful to you.

And to all my mutuals who interact with me and have made me feel like I'm a part of something, to all the frequent commenters that leave me words of encouragement and everyone who decided to click on that follow-button: I want to thank you all so so much, and I'm grateful to every one of you, even if we don't interact much or haven't spoken at all.

Uploading my fics on here has been such an interesting experience to me who has spent almost all their life offline, thinking they need to hide their presence rather than share a little bit of themselves. I have been contemplating whether or not I want to celebrate milestones, because I don't think I truly deserve them, but I'm using this to give back to you, so I hope you don't mind :')

Yours, Rei

[atzeroo]

(Small) Update: I'm back!

Hi guys, long time no see! How have you been? 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯

I'm sorry that I have been away for so long and didn't upload at all this month; I have been battling the worst kind of writer's block recently while simultaneously trying to balance university life and it's just not working out the way I want to (ᵕ—ᴗ—)

But I'm back! More or less, I guess. I have been writing a bit here and there and will upload once December starts (I was hoping to get 24 fics done, but that's just not happening I think..🤔) I hope you'll look forward to it!

I'll also re-upload my latest xavier and sylus fics and finally do the challenges I have been tagged in by my lovely moots 🫶🏻

Thank you for all the love you have given my fics while I have been away and for waiting patiently..! I'll go and catch up on what I have been missing out on this past month now (≖⩊≖)

[atzeroo]

I know I have been so bad at updating on here, but I'm finally free from uni for a while again!! (at least until late july if I'm lucky :')) I'm very sorry for having to constantly go on hiatus but it's been really bad this year and it's probably not going to get any better for a while unfortunately;;

That being said, I'm uploading tonight and will go and catch up on some fics and fanart in the meantime.

Thank you for sticking with me throughout my constant ups and downs and I hope I'll see you for any future uploads :)

- Rei