9:04 10/14/2015
Is the time and date as I write this. A miracle i’m here and a miracle i’m posting. Truth is nobody is probably listening or reading whatever. I’m currently on the phone and the person on the other line, which so happens to be the love of my life who is dead asleep. All that does is give me time to reflect on life. Just yesterday we hit two years and ten months, rather close to our third anniversary and truthfully that is just crazy to think about. I sit here in bed missing her and wondering what she’s dreaming about, and thinking about where our life is headed because in my current profession not even I know which way my life is headed and that worries me, i’m on the cusp of adulthood and often find myself clueless. Talks of building up credit and talks of getting a place together if my life goes one direction, or the other. I’m rather tired of all the uncertainty in my life, but there’s a few things i’m sure about in life. Family. a few friends and my love Jennie. She may or may not see this or see this and be amazed I even opted to post or get on this site that if was a physical thing collected a copious amount of spider webs and gave birth to a multitude of spider babies, that’s besides the point. The only things that are for a lack of words, and to be cliche my love is my anchor, so Jennie if you read this, thank you. From the bottom of my heart, thank you for being the constant in my life that helped me stay level headed when I was ready to lose my shit, when I got done, or the constant not knowing was getting to me. You are the strongest and most amazing person and I love you. So thank you love, and goodnight.