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I've Always Been
Strong enough, but honestly? I don't wanna be. Because that empowerment gives people the impression that I'm fine on my own. Small enough to go practically unnoticed. Combine that with a tendency to stay on the silent side and I'm totally invisible. Smart enough to know these things, and not kid myself into believing there's much I can do about it.
DAMN, POETIC
If I could drown in my thoughts, That would be likely If only I cound end all these sufferings I would definitely do it, surely
My Biggest Regret.
My biggest regret is not loving you. My biggest regret was not giving you my heart. My biggest regret was not giving you my first kiss. My biggest regret was not being with you for so long. My biggest regret was letting you see the part of me that you could use against me. And you did.
You know that feeling where you are in-between that gut wrenching loneliness and pure sadness but you don't want to tell someone, or even reach out and try to find a friend?
That's where I'm sitting right now.
16hours
There is going to be 16 hours of you day that your sitting in a cell alone. I don't expect for your first thought to be me. I don't I'm not that selfish. You have had so much distraction the past few months between the booze and women, you honestly probably haven't even thought of me. But I know out of those 16 hours your going to be looking over your life. Usually people start to reminice like where their life has been for the past five years. Which clearly was me, it was me for seven. Yet again I don't expect the first 16hours to be of me because you spent the last 3 months forcing me out. But there is going to be a thought of me. There is going to plenty of thoughts of me. Your going to have a lot of bad ones I'm sure. But there is going to come a time your sitting in that cell alone and the girl you been fucking for the past month.. Your going to feel disconnected from. Because really where is the connection ? Your in a cell alone and the past seven years of your life is so distant from you, that you can't bare another thought of loneliness . Your going to want to feel your home because your not at home at all. And she won't be your home because I was your home. And that's it. All i want out of your 16hours a day alone, is just one thought of realization. The realization of missing your home. And realization that your never going to have your real home again. I don't think that's selfish right ? That one thought ?
well I fucking typed out a bunch of shit then it didn't post so it got deleted lol just another reason to fucking kill myself. I seriously hate my fucking life and my fucking existence. I miss her, I want her, I want to hold her in my arms, smell her hair, feel her cheek and rub my lips against her neck, I want to kiss her and I want her to know I love her, I want to have a future with her, I want to struggle through life with her, I want to be there for her and I want her to be there for me, always and forever, I want us to be an item always and forever, I want to make her smile everyday and make her feel like a princess, I want to fucking live with her, I want to die with her.
Too bad she's gone, I want to fucking kill myself more than I have ever wanted to, it really scares me, but I will stick around for her. Because I love her
