SEND ❓+ A QUESTION AND MY MUSE HAS NO CHOICE BUT TO ANSWER TRUTHFULLY
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@notspiderkid said: ❓+ honest thoughts on peter parker? 👀
When he had first met the little spider, the kid crawled onto the space ship with orders to not do just that and stowed away, excited to be on a space adventure. Young and naïve. Probably thought that everyone was going to go on a field trip with Professor Valerie Felicity Frizzle, PhD, or as the children in the show called her, the Frizz, clearly not up to the task to save the whole universe. However, in doing so, disobeying orders had indeed saved Stephen’s life. Sure, the rescue could had been maneuvered better and Stark’s comments afterwards were a little uncalled for, but all in all, everything worked out and there was a moment of reprieve. The spider had manners, more than Tony ever had.
There was something nice with not bickering with a person or having another with a huge ego. And Stephen should know, being an arrogant asshole himself at times. Truly, it was nice to have someone with a different yet still smart mindset, just a little more younger than most of the group in tow. Who knows how old the Cloak of Levitation was and Strange never did ask his companion of a few years that question. Not like the fabric could talk or carry a conversation with him. He knew Stark was mentally five years old at points or was that the pettiness overtaking him? Nah. More like a man child. Strikes against a certain Iron Man’s overall attitude aside, Stephen was more happy to say his name towards the spider, who introduced himself as Peter. Was he like Wong? With only one version to call himself? Well, in true fashion without missing a beat, Strange said his full name in kind. Which of course had gotten jokes about how his own title sounded like it was made up on the fly.
All respect Stephen had gained for this super heroic kid was now lost, clearly now seemingly like all he was there for was to be the butt of all of the jokes. That’s how it felt anyways. And of course, after that, all hell broke lose. But before that, he sees all the timelines possible. There are a few where they are one good terms and many where they are opposite. All because one wants to fix things and the other sees that some people can’t be saved no matter how hard one tries. Stephen doesn’t think about it, doesn’t want to because he had seen so many times where the spider dies and it’s mostly his fault.
Thanos wins and it’s inevitable. 14,000 times he has to not think about anything but that one time where it’s End Game. It results in Stark’s death. Which is a shame because everyone generally liked Iron Man, including the little spider. The realization breaks Stephen’s cold but still somewhat marshmallow heart. He wants to save lives not take them so this burden is now placed upon his soul, pulling him further down. He wonders after this, if the kid would blame him for everything that was about to come? Parker, he now knows the last name, should had. All Stephen has now is guilt and that is what he has for the little spider.
And now, Strange is trying to reach out, making sure spells are ready to help Peter Parker out the best he can, even breaking the Multiverse for it. However, he doesn’t realize is that the END GAME choice is the end of their somewhat father-son relationship, that had crawled out of nowhere, just like an itsy bitsy spider.
----“My thoughts on Peter Parker are somewhat incomplete at the moment. Of course there is a rift between us right now because of ideals. I have seen so many things that the spider kid hasn’t and I wanted to protect him from that, by any costs. But he sees things in his own way, and I can’t fault him for it. Still, he is trying to live two different lives and the more he doesn’t pick a side, the more damage it’s going to cost him. Believe me, I know”. He regrets everything and thinks Stark’s throw away line about throwing the time stone in a garbage disposal seemed like the right choice, all things considering. This is the price Stephen pays for his own hubris.