y’know, with how well-known of a headcanon it is, i find it weird how much i rarely hear people talk about heart’s experience with going blind. Soul and mind, sure, especially soul, with the guilt of blinding him and all. But nobody seems to acknowledge how much losing one of your senses would be life-altering.
Think about all the things heart took for granted when he still had his sight. The beautiful sunsets, the patterning of flowers and birds, the faces of his loved ones. Now he’s never able to see any of that again. He only knows a memory of what they were, a distant flickering in his thoughts when he’s reminded of people, things, places, etc. Wouldn’t that hurt him? Wouldn’t that realization, and living in the darkness, unable to see any light again, just cause every loop to be worse for him? He’d grieve the experiences he once had, it would keep him up at night, his thoughts going back and forth between wishing that soul and mind were more reasonable to wishing that he had done something different.
Yeah, sure, soul or mind may feel guilty as perpetrator and witness, but heart is the victim here. Whether or not he was actually “right” or “wrong” leading up to his blinding, his body will never grow back its vision. He’s stuck like this, how much does that mean to him?
