SoulCollage card made by Michelle Villanti
All things run their course, if we let them. If we stop an energy in motion out of fear of it, we are then hooked. I know when fear comes up that I am hooked to the outcome of the particular situation, or person...Even more hooked to the outcome. When I’m afraid of someone because I anticipate that the encounter will not give me what I want, it is then I am in non-acceptance of them and the situational outcome that I wish or hope for. Its something I’m attached to having… “The what”: That they won’t love me, like me, understand me, give me “the thing” that I have to know in my deepest self, that I am not giving to myself. And it goes further than that. I don’t want it from myself because I see myself as lacking and its only from another that I believe will fill “that thing” I am not embracing in my self...So often I doubt that I possess it or that even if I did, it wouldn’t feel as good as if it came from another.
That “other”, that “one” is within me and all around me...It abounds in all existence but I fail to know this because of all the stories I’ve told myself and been told by others. The biggest realization I had was when I discovered that “Everyone is you” We mirror each other and there is nothing I’m seeing “out there” that I myself do not possess within me...So even the dark and ugliest other who victimizes me reflects a part of me that I do not see (or want to see) and I victimize myself from the inside out.
Whatever and whoever I fear, calls me to greater love for myself first, and then for that and them. Love like light (one could say is light) dispels darkness and is the antidote to fear. My greatest fear is that I will not love myself enough in time to show love to those I most fear. Even if that love must be sent from a distance because the person is estranged, lost or dead. I would say my second biggest fear is of being deceived or lied to because it is in my own self-deception that I am in the greatest darkness of the light and truth of myself.
Words are powerful...they express feelings and thought forms and convey energies that created connection or separation, fear or love. And yet, of all these things, it is only love and connection that is real. I once heard someone say that FEAR is False Evidence Appearing Real...Because it’s not real, it is an illusion that is so seductive and ensnares so invitedly that we go around chasing and pursuing shadows of our own making because we Believe they are real, We believe the story...And yet, we live in a world of duality for a reason and to wit, the reason we give ourselves is how we can know the light, the truth. To be in spirit or In-spired; to come together, to not be separate from our source of all we are and all that is. And in the in-between of knowing and being without the story is where wisdom lies..to discern our truth out of the confusion of the stories and parts which must be welcomed and embraced. We must all sit at the table and allow that central unifying spirit as the hub of the wheel to hold all of it. Within that central point of spirit all is possible, all is creation and love begetting more love and creating more and more realizations that we are all connected, all one and finally know Love is eternal, everlasting and real.
-MV