#november diary

[hard-to-study-pharmacy]

06.11.17 // Monday // 14:30 🍁November Diary🍁 Hi Guys 🐰 It was a really stressful day 💊 I’m going to study for Pathophysiology, Drug Chemistry and Pharmacognosy tests. ☕️ Wish me luck 🌹

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November Diary - Art & the life with my crazy friends

[7ala-az-blog]

اليوم و أنا فايتة الجامعة شفت ياسر 😭 ياسر هاد عبارة عن كائن جميل جمال ملوش مثال .. كنت معجبة فيه بزماناتي - ولازلت - المهم خطب جديد ع وحدة ما بنعرفها ف اليوم بس شفتو ادايقت، ضلّيت طول المُحاضرة متنحة و متوترة ومش فاهمة شي .. ليزا بتحكيلي إنتي غيرانة لول المشكلة إنو أنا صرت لو كلمني أيا واحد بالدنيا ولو أيا حدا اطلّع فيي ع كزا مرّة أو هيكا بتزكّر أحمد 😭 بحس حالي كإني عاملة عملة كإنو الناس كلهم بيطلعو فيي و بيراقبوني .. بحس من جوّا بشي كإنو تأنيب ضمير ! مع إنو أنا ما بكون عاملة شي غلط .. و كل تعاملاتي مع الناس سطحية و عادي يعني مش هالشي الواو !! وعلى فكرة بعرف إني ولا ببالو و هوه ولا فارق معو شي .. أصلاً هوه عمرو م حس بالأمور هاي .. بس أنا بعتل هم شي مش موجود، و بستنّا شي عمرو م رح يصير .... أععععععع ما أغباني .. والله نفسي يجي حدا يضربني كف يخربطلي كل اللي براسي ، الأشياء اللي حوليي بتزكرني بالموضوع كإنو صار من يومين بس ! مع إنو من زمان الشي 😣 أصلاً كل شي عبارة عن خرا 😖✌

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The Diary of Rachel Berry

November 23

I know it's been a while since I last wrote, but so much has happened in all this time. First of all, I completely got rid of my childish wardrobe and traded it in for a much more stylish wardrobe that complimented my figure a whole lot better. I think it's good that I went through this change. A lot more boys are noticing me now and now that I've changed my clothes, the confidence of a young teenage girl can come with it. Social confidence, I mean. I've always been confident in my theater life, but now I'm not so socially awkward. The new personality is still evolving, as I still have the tendency to flaunt my talent in people's faces, but now I do it with more class and kindness, rather than just saying that they can bow down to my authority because my singing voice is clearly superior to theirs. The blonde tips of my hair was a little much, but I'm slowly beginning to like it a lot. Kurt says it makes my skin tone look 2 shades darker, like I have a tan at the beach. 

The whole reason I changed my look is because I wanted Blaine to notice me as more than just a friend. As it turns out, he's liked me this whole time. At first it got me very angry that Blaine knew I liked him and he liked me, but he was still afraid to tell me his feelings. It was much harder for me to admit my feelings, considering I made a fool out of myself every single time I even looked into his eyes. Which are still the most gorgeous things in the universe, but that's not what we're talking about right now. Artie had this idea to make a tango scene instead of a waltz scene when Tony and Maria first lay eyes on each other in the gym, and Kurt doesn't want to do all the mushy West Side Story stuff when we don't have to, so I asked Blaine to rehearse with me instead and when we finished, he kissed me. His lips touched mine and I didn't even intend on that happening. It wasn't even scripted or anything, it just happened. After a small argument and some feelings confessed, Blaine is my boyfriend now. 

I'm gonna be honest, I've probably never been and never will be happier than I am right now. Okay, the fact that I never will be happier is a lie, because there's always my future wedding day and my broadway debut, but as of right now, I've never been happier. I've heard some people whispering behind our backs about how people think he's gay and I'm his beard, but that's impossible. Blaine is most definitely straight. His sexuality isn't something that he likes to joke around about. Besides, I don't think a gay or even a bisexual man could kiss like that.... like... damn. I'm the luckiest girl in the world.

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The Diary of Rachel Berry

November 10th

Dear Diary,

Do you know why it's so hard to be me? The answer is no. Because no one will ever understand what it's like to be me. I'm a star, everybody knows that, but my star shines too bright and it's too late to dim it, so now everybody in the school is either intimidated or annoyed with it and nobody will actually take the time to be my friend except for Kurt and Blaine. I feel like Blaine is only obligated to be my friend because we have our names on each other's shoulders, and if he's not around me, this dangerous side effect that people have been talking about might kick in and torture him. I don't know. All I do know is that Blaine is pretty well-liked at McKinley. I don't doubt that for a minute. Blaine is such a sweet soul. He's so open and warm and so sweet and caring and... his arms look so strong... and he has the most amazing eyes I've ever seen in my entire life... gorgeous.... he's not the tallest person in the world, but he's taller than me... and he's gorgeous...

Anyway. Even though he lost the lead in West Side Story, he still actually wants to spend time with me. I think there's a catch, but he's assuring me there is none. Kurt apologized to me for the nasty things he said to me, and while that's nice and all, I still feel really... alone, kind of. Sometimes I wanna just bring a knife to myself and end it all, but human life is too precious to take, but then again, mine isn't. But I'm not going to resort to taking my own life, no matter how much it hurts every cell in my body to live another day in this hell. I won't be one of those suicide victims, I know I can live, but maybe I'll just live in my room for a few years until I can get into college and move out of here. That'd be better than what I've been given.