How It Is
Shall I say how it is in your clothes?
A month after your death I wear your blue jacket. 聽
The dog at the center of my life recognizes 聽
you鈥檝e come to visit, he鈥檚 ecstatic.
In the left pocket, a hole.
In the right, a parking ticket
delivered up last August on Bay State Road. 聽
In my heart, a scatter like milkweed,
a flinging from the pods of the soul.
My skin presses your old outline.
It is hot and dry inside.
I think of the last day of your life,
old friend, how I would unwind it, paste 聽
it together in a different collage,
back from the death car idling in the garage, 聽
back up the stairs, your praying hands unlaced, 聽
reassembling the bits of bread and tuna fish 聽
into a ceremony of sandwich,
running the home movie backward to a space 聽
we could be easy in, a kitchen place
with vodka and ice, our words like living meat.
Dear friend, you have excited crowds
with your example. They swell
like wine bags, straining at your seams. 聽
I will be years gathering up our words, 聽
fishing out letters, snapshots, stains,
leaning my ribs against this durable cloth
to put on the dumb blue blazer of your death.
鈥擬axine Kumin