WHY CBD? Well, I saw other insta influencers using CBD talking about the wonder effects of it. I have had anxiety my whole life, but thought I had it under control. At the beginning of 2019 my anxiety spiraled, worsened and I tacked on panic disorder. I started seeing a therapist which has been LOVELY. Seriously, it has helped so much, and I’m fortunate enough to get ‘free’ care at my school I am lucky to have bonded with this therapist. I tried one once before and it didn’t click. So, while therapy was working it wasn’t working ‘enough’, so my doctor decided to put me on Zoloft after a panic attack that put me out of commission for two days. Long story short, my body rejected the Zoloft. After taking it, a very small dose, I woke up shaking–almost convulsing, heart rate almost 200 bpm, sweating, panic, dizzy, confusion, stomach distress. The next days? I was a zombie, my muscles felt weak, my legs couldn’t walk. I had to take a week off of school because I couldn’t physically make it out of my apartment. I am so thankful for my friends who came monitor me, make sure I ate, ensure I made it to the bathroom. My doctor told me to suck it up, these medications have side effects. Well, the first dose was only 20 mg, the second was 12.5 mg. My body was BEGGING me not to take these pills. I didn’t like the idea that something SO small in dosage could be SO potent. I mean listen, I have anxiety over everything, so after this fiasco, I would have an incredible amount trying a different SSRI. My therapist also thought with continued care, I wouldn’t even need an SSRi, at most maybe something for in the moment panic attacks such as Xanax. However, I decided to try CBD. Today was my first day with it so I cannot give a full review. Today I did normal errands, grocery shopping, target run, checkin in on the local cats for adoption. Usually when I do these at some point I feel nauseous, dizzy, or stomach pains from anxiety over fear of getting ill, since I have been sick a lot. I have developed a fear of passing out, throwing up, not being able to drive home when going out. Today, after the CBD, I did all of that with no nausea, and little fear. Only some stomach distress from IBS, and being hungry. I am hopeful this will be an end to my troubles, or at least help. I just need to make sure it doesn’t show up on a drug test despite having <.3% of THC in it. I am listening to my body, listening to my mind, and I am finding my OWN path to healing. I am thankful for traditional medicine, but in my personal experience my doctors have sucked, belittled me, and haven’t taken my body seriously, for the first time I feel in control. I am doing what I need to do.