//mentions/hints of body mutilation, depression and general nihilism talk
i just made some bullshit ill be entirely honest
explanation/headcanon below more i really wanna talk about it lowkey
i just had an idea and i could. not stop drawing itokay so its obvious this has like 5 billion headcanons injected into it so ill explain it here since i dont think you can get any of it from thr comic alone belh
my headcanon fornthe whole voidbohnd disease is that its suppose to turn the effect individual into a mindless husk of themselves as their entire body gets "powered" by thr void, since the void is greater than greater than greater than great, there isnt enough space for it in a small vessel so of course it would scrape some stuff from the individual
i have a small theory/headcanon that celestial is voidbound,or at least affected by thesame mutations the void bound varients of entities has, during or afternthe collapse of the gardens, essentialky shedding what was left of her old life, forcing her to be in a state of constant pain as she navigates (or rather sleeps) through the endless void
surviving it/maintaining yourself means that the individual would be able to tame their powers involuntarily given, but woule have to bare the pain of mutations or missing flesh (or something like that, still as work inprogress)
celestial, obviously, survived the disease, blooming under the harshest conditions, but as she continues on she doesnt find anymore reasons to pursue a "normal life" or start over again, because it would be a constant reminder of what she had lost, of who she had lost, the tranquility forever fragile, the "peace" forever gone, hence becoming the nihilist we see in game
however, she recognises another individual like her (or rather, replicating a younger self): voidbreaker
voidbreaker also underwent the voidbound disease, having a rarer varient where it was only taking stuff like organic matter snd flesh away from them, but came out with their mind and consciousness intact, and somehow, they havent indulge in tne comfort of nihilism, rather they picked themsekves up (like how celestial did after that disease slowly quietened down) and marched forward (or rather walked forward eith their sword as support before learning how to float)
she can see how they hide themselves, how they follow everyone like a bee, how defensive they get of others, how they drag their claws down their helmet, how they trace the bulging nerves on whats left of their "skin", how much distance they maintain between people that isnt thr waterimp, the clock conductor and the teleporter, how their stoicism is mixed in with anxiety, how their introversion wrangles with their social needs - she counts down how many interactions itll take for them to become something like her
me think they would mutuals of sort, having fleeting, existential conversations and just sitting in silence most of the time whenever celestial's dreams started speaking in the voices of her friends, this comic is just me exploring their dynamic a bit
basically, celestial is asking how does voidbreaker keep on living despite everything being null snd void the momrnt it was thought of, how are they content with a reality of empty meaning, how do they find "peace" in fragility
and voidbreakers response is one of cautionous hope, albiet its a bit strained since the softening of the void bound disease was rather recent in comparison to celestial total tolerance numbing it, so theyre still experiencing the trepidation of something big collapsing (whether the control of themselves or the homethat they have or the other entities)
however, they still cling onto the something that is there, whatever is left there, because unlike celestial, they still recognise themselves as something, and while a part of them is pertified, its all you have to hold in the void, even with the caution, even with the fear, even with the futility
and celestial... considers it, for a bit
or something like that idk, cant put the textless versions onnhere cuz of the stupid 10 image limit argh ill do it in a reblog
anywaysbthanks for readin this!!! this is like my 3rd time making a comic snd i think its okay, i did the panels on krita and the text on ibis cuz the file size raeavhed 1gb??? somehow????? and it eas lagging a lot sk yeah lol
happy1 day late anniversary nullscape heres me crashing into your party with horrific writing and horrific gameplay🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹