Enjoy the silence, that's what the Depeche Mode said , even tho I prefer the Lacuna Coil's cover. Enjoy the silence for me it's kinda impossible, even here in the middle of the forest, my forest btw, a forest where I grew up and always considered as a second home.
The silence is always something I loved, the possibility to isolate yourself from the rest of the world without any issues, contamination or thoughts. Now I can't enjoy the silence because I can't have any, anywhere, anytime. Even at home in my bed or in the middle of the woods with only cicadas in the backgrounds.
I can't play videogames, I can't read books or manga, I can't watch movies or anime, it's everytime all fucking loud. I can't concentrate. Work is the only thing that I'm capable of it seems, but I cannot live to work.
My mind is too full of thoughts that I can't even comprehend how I am still not deranged. I'm Slowpoke when it come to process them, it take days, weeks and months sometimes. Still my thoughts are there, and with them the loud noise that they bring, they are deafining. Where is the void the it's needed? Lovecraft help me.
This is cleary not my season but we didn't have a proper winter in ages so at this point I'm waiting for the Krakatoa to blew up so the can cover the sky and I can have the proper cold I want. Also I look better with jackets and cargo pants.
Still, I'm Giulio. With all the problems that comes with it. I'm still me. Attached to NGE, to LoL and everything that my rooms sparks cringe. I even enjoyed Sally Rooney's novels, even tho I know that is something you despise or consider mediocre. Sorry if I don't like your fucking Virgina Woolf. I'm a simple guy. Read Vinland Saga pls
In this tumultuous noise I'm even alone, but it shouldn't be a problem since I was a lone wolf a big part of my life. Still, tenderness is missing, even I feel the lack of it. But, as you know, I don't work on tinder, I not a joyboy and not even a 6pack 1.80cm guy. Heck, the only times that worked for me was 'cuz of my super cute dog, but now is dead so I don't have even that weapon anymore.
Bah, what a shitshow this is.
Anyway here's a pic of me in the woods.