"One night, to create a little diversion in the wearing monotony of those long evening hours, when I heard my neighbour’s shutter click, I placed myself up against the door where I was out of sight from the spy-hole.
‘Where are you, Baxter?’ shouted the warder and, hastily unlocking the door, he threw it open, appearing in the doorway in great agitation.
He was plainly relieved at the sight of me. ‘What do you mean, standing where I can’t see you? don’t you know you’re not allowed to do that?’
‘Is that another regulation?’ I asked. ‘I thought at least I had the freedom of the cell.’
‘You’ll get something you won’t like,’ he said, and slammed the door.
Those regulations! As every prisoner had to obey them it seemed only reasonable that there should be a copy in every cell. Far from it. We were not even allowed to read the copy pasted up in the hall. I tried to, but was driven away every time by the warder in charge.
‘No loitering in the passages.’
Finally, but starting every time where I had left off the time before, I managed to commit most of the printed form to memory.
I don’t know why there should be this objection to the prisoners knowing the regulations. Possibly because the warders are afraid of being held too strictly to them themselves.
That first night, when I started to go to bed, I found I had struck one of the worst things in my prison experience. No sheets, no pillowcase; only blankets, hard and brittle with age and much baking, and foul smelling beyond belief. The pillow was a greasy, filthy bit of ticking, filled with small hard pellets of what appeared to be metal of some sort. I never found out what they were. The blankets were too old and hard to have much warmth in them. They were baked to destroy germs and lice, but the knowledge that the dirt and the odour were hygienic did not help me much that first night. In time I seemed to get accustomed to them. Or perhaps it was that I never struck anything quite so bad as those first ones.
Often during the night – and during all the nights I passed in prison – the silence was broken by horrible, long-drawn howls, expressive of pent-up misery, bitterness, hate. The warders rushed about, trying to locate the culprit. But they seldom succeeded. Such sounds echoing and re-echoing as they did were exceedingly difficult to trace to their source."
- Archibald Baxter, We Will Not Cease (2nd ed., Christchurch, NZ: The Caxton Press, 1968) reprinted in Peter Brock, ed., 'These Strange Criminals': An Anthology of Prison Memoirs By Conscientious Objectors from the Great War to the Cold War. Toronto: University of Toronto Press, 2004. p. 106.