#oc chef

[rusalka-s]

more OC drawings incoming

this is Kamael, the MC in a story where he and his family become angels and demons in a grotesque human experiment to test their character and humanity's kindness...

(Also, he is a chef, and all his brothers have different day jobs which suit their character.)

[catfever7]

Sometimes I wonder whatever happend to a few of my favorite lovers...

Whatever happen to : Mitch, Jacob, Gil, CBG 2 (Cute Bearded Guy #2- David),  That Starbucks Kid (Austin), The Japanese Guy (Jason), OC Chef, Alejandro and a few other memorable guys...but then at the same time I’m like who tf really cares they were all not so good to me anyway. Don’t think of them dumby!!

Speaking of guys, the British guy called me tonight, I haven;t talked to him since June/July.  I always think of what could have been with him and what I still want from him and what I donlt want from him. He said he missed hearing my voice and I called him a liar like always. 

I don’t really believe anything a man tells me anymore and I don;t think I ever will. 

[catfever7]

Horrible Rotten Day

Today at work the sushi specialist is all butthurt that I am ignoring him...He's like why are you so mad...Umm because you offended me with your text, telling me not to talk about what occurred between us to anyone.

He's all you know what I mean...umm no I don't..then he's all give me a hug. No GFYS.  I'm not hugging you.  then he's asking me about our encounter, was I satisfied, will I let him "hit it again"  Do I want to do coke with him... WTF dude WTF.

Thennnn he's telling me all about when he was in Idaho recently, and worked with Nasty...and Nasty told him how I had hooked up with OC Chef, and OC Chef was going around telling all his buddies about me, how  I was super good in bed.  again WTF.   All of them can GF off.

[catfever7]

I was looking at one of my former sushi co-workers friends list on facebook (to see if this new chef I worked with today is friends with him on facebook) since they apparetnyl know eachother. They are not friends on facebook, BUT in looking at his friends list I discovered something.... I am the only whitey he is friends with.

lol.. 

[catfever7]

I feel all kinds of weird emotions right now... Ughh

1. The place I live, while not a great apartment building or building in general, it's in an area I really like and it's what I can afford (Portland really has a SERIOUS issue with affordable housing for people).  Anyway there was a restaurant below when I first moved in last June 2014..the restaurant closed in October , another restaurant went in..that closed in December. In January someone else decided to try their hand at a restaurant/catering company.  Well I guess that person has now backed out of the whole thing, claiming all the work and renovations to te space below are for nothing, because the WHOLE building /structure are "unsafe" Someone in the neighborhood association even made a comment, well maybe the code department should look at the building.  Where does that leave me?   I am all kinds of worried, and thinking now I need to start looking for a new place, like I just paid my Mom and Russ back for the deposits they let me borrow when I moved in here and now this. like wtf life..wtf. 

So I may have to move soon....which stresses me the fuck out.

and then there is work...

Cougar gets back Tuesday, she will be in Portland for a few days(so I'll get to see her) and then she is off to Wyoming to work..and who is working in Wyoming with her?  OC Chef!!  He called me Saturday night to talk and tell me how much he misses me (which was actually sweet) I really liked him a lot..more then I admitted to myself.  But anyway, during our convo, he said he is Cheyenne, Wyoming working too.. So I told him Melanie is the chef that will be coming there to work with him.   Ughhhh.this just annoys me. They both have a past history, he and I have a past history, and now she is going there to work with him.. and where am I??? STUCK in stupid fucking Portland..forever.  My boss has no plans to send me anywhere at the moment, so I am just here..

I hate this city and want to go away like seriously..   I just can't sometimes. I just want to disconnect forever.. and be gone :/

I mean I already feel so alone and this just makes me feel even more alone.

[catfever7]

Work was awkward..because the table I use for the sushi I hand out, was missing. Oh and then the chef I work with at that location, I hadn't seen him in a week or two, he comments "You look like you lost weight"  "Like 10 or 15 lbs"  WTF??  Why are you noticing my body in the first place?

I might have lost weight...I might not have..who knows..but whatever..

[catfever7]

Some psycho lesbian yelled at me today at work :(   The day was good and super busy(sushi demands were high and our most popular was being sold out most of the day), Anyway, around 5:30-ish close to the end of my shift, this lesbian comes and tries our sushi..she had never had sushi before and liked the sushi..and wanted to know where she could buy it,we were all out of the type she tried, and the chef I work with was busy and I didn't know where he was, so I suggest a different sushi and she's all "No I want this kind" You shouldn't advertise something if you can't give it to people.

and starts yelling..where is the chef I want to talk to him..he finally comes out and talks to her and she starts yelling at him..and then she left.

  and then he..he comes over and is like telling me I need to try to sell other types of sushi, not just the one I give samples of. Umm duh! Dummy. I do. I TRIED to suggest alternatives but she wasn;t having it.

I sell all types of sushi we have and try to sell and promote all our products. but yeah.. sucks to be yelled at by customers and your "co-worker"

[catfever7]

In the car after dinner, on the way to dropping me off at home, he asks me what kind of booze I like to drink.. I'm like what kind don't I like ;)  But no seriously Jameson is my favorite and Jose..I get into trouble though if I drink too much Jameson and then I ask him what he likes to drink, he replies Johnnie Walker...I think tomorrow after work we are going out for drinks...drinks near his place.just in case, I think I'll be wearing cute panties tomorrow to work and bringing a dress to change into...just in case you know...