I’m glad i found another survivor
I hope you’re okay, genuinely
I’m unfortunately still kinda stuck and addicted to being taken advantage of and I don’t know how to safely leave without just coming back
I’ve left before and some instances are stopping to accept me back, luckily. But I’m still afraid
So many users there have csam saved, theres a good chunk of ones who I know groomed me and they’ve actually MADE csam before, but somehow weren’t caught.
I want to find a way to call them out and get them arrested but I don’t know how to. I lost most of their usernames, and instances have recently mostly stopped letting me in
It's definitely an uphill battle.
I don't think I said this on here yet but I did go back once. And another time I had some sort of compulsion to watch one of their websites and checked in on it several times a day but luckily didn't have an account then. I've heard of others experiencing the same so at least you're very much not alone.
I wish I could give some perfect advice that'd make everything better. (Please don't take that as me saying there's no hope.) If you have any kinds of social connections outside of there I'd recommend keeping those really close. I think that may help, at least a little bit.
As for the last bit ... I'm not really sure again but I think talking to others may be able to help with that too, since others may know the usernames. And contacting cybertip may be worth a shot.