i was buyin ice cream tonight and it’s an outside shop but it was completely empty save for a man and his young daughter, but for some odd reason the scent of my ex’s perfume was incredibly heavy to the point where i could taste it when i would breathe through my mouth. lady was trying to tell me she could help me at the second window and i was dissociating and convincing myself that my brain was trying to warn me that if i wouldn’t leave she was going to show up, like it was an omen, but at the same time my entire mindset shifted back an entire year and half of me wanted to call her right there bc i instantly missed her and the other half wanted to get in my car and leave before the smell got stronger
thankfully the situation stayed neutral and i ordered my ice cream and left and she never showed and i didn’t do anything stupid but wow. i’ve never like been legitimately triggered by anything before save for once or twice so that was really weird to get hit with so many emotions at once. healing truly is a process it’s amazing
