"How do you /truly/ feel about yourself as a person?"
My muse has to tell nothing but the truth for 10 asks. (1/10)
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You know, if you were to direct that question to me a while ago, I would have answered that I absolutely despise myself as a person.
Like, fuck! Look at me! Look at this…..sad little man who’s the son of a disastrous family that basically no longer exist, save for him! The son of a father who was a big charlatan! A man that will never really fit in anywhere because he always feels different, and speaking of different, have you see his face? His strange and sharp teeth and pointed ears? Maybe you also saw how his pupils look like, it’s like a human version of a freaking Zubat! Who knows if he really is human, I mean, have you ever seen a human being with those characteristics?!
And maybe, all that wouldn’t matter, if said man wasn’t such a big, crybaby and scaredy bore! Yeah! His personality is being a weeping coward who will lament over any little inconvenience in his life like a fucking loser yet he won’t do nothing to change!!!!!
……..But that old Grimsley is dead, gone, and done. Today, I can honestly say that I am…..proud of who I am as a person. I may not be perfect, heck, I have too many flaws, but at least, I am doing something, to change myself. I took on a meaner, but fearless look on life, and it is helping me a lot. I am done with being the living example of my father’s mistakes. Just so you have an idea, I removed my dad’s last name from mine, my name used to be Grimsley De Alencar Oliveira, did you know?
Oops I trailed off a bit here didn’t I-
A-ANYWAY, I…….that’s it, I am done with my old self. I am slowly, but surely growing into someone better, someone who can have a good heart, but won’t let people hurt said heart, even if he has to take extreme measures.
And the way I am now, I even started to look at my strange physical features with new eyes. Though it’s hard to love them, I sometimes think….
……These peculiar features…..though they may be weird, they are part of me. They are what makes me……me. I am Grimsley, and I have sharp canines, sharp eyes and pointed ears! And you know what? I accept myself that way! I accept myself as a person!
