I'm Here, I've Arrived
It's wild to see that I am actually here, finally after years of saying I needed to move out of Texas. The decision of where to go after has been the one that held me back from taking the plunge years ago. That, and the self-talk that I could make Austin work. That I tried every avenue to "be happy". I thought it was just a mental thing, a mindset shift. Everyone else around me seemed to be loving it. I had a home, my first home, decorated to me exact liking, I had friends, a well-paying enviable job - I had it all. Except the dating sucked. There was no one I could connect with, mentally, mindset wise, politically, let alone emotionally. I truly was better than everyone there. And when I say better, I mean higher. I had higher perspective to the deeper meanings in life than the superficiality they thrived on. Sure, it was fun for a few years not caring about anything else besides my own humanly being. Eat, drink, have fun and enjoy life. Isn't that what we strive for in this life? I achieved it, yet I felt so empty, this void I couldn't fill or figure out how to. This was the constant ache that kept me from thriving, from reaching fulfillment. Because what I needed was something deeper, something more rooted. Something more in touch with our Spirit and soul. Something real, not just images, superficial external possessions and reputations.
I could care less. I am truly embodying what I've always sensed but ignored to be true, or didn't want to believe. I could care less and I need something so much more meaningful. So much more purposeful. Something so different than what our modern day society promotes. I am so not those things. And all the people in my life that continue to chase those things are starting to slowly fall out of my life, and I couldn't be more okay with it.
Moving to Maryland, back to home roots, it's like I'm finding my center again. I'm finding my true self again, and am in the environment, space and energy to help me follow that path.
I love that I am here. And this is a first time in a long time I can say I truly mean that. I feel at home here and I know I chose correctly. I made the right move. Despite how hard it was to get here, my soul chose correctly.
I'm here for soul healing. I'm here for soul growth. And I'm here for soul work.
(7.7.25)














