let's just say iseul has been thinking about that one thing mister time traveler said & he finally has the guts to do it. so there he goes, tugging the taller's sleeve & waiting for him to turn around, looking determined as he leans in closer & closer, only inches away from their lips touching. " you said i could try if i wanted too.. " with that being being said, a hand of his comes to cup the elders cheek & he presses a kiss against his lips. :))))))
he knew that Iseul liked to spend time around him, in his shop - he helped him whenever he could and didn’t complain as OFTEN as Traveler thought he would. He actually did a really good job and without him, things wouldn’t look as good in here – Time Traveler really should be THANKFUL for a friend like him but suddenly, he was tugging on his sleeve and he turned around, a complaint already on his tongue but – he swallowed it down when the smaller hands came to cup his cheeks, a frown was on his face. He meant it as a JOKE back then but now that they were so close, that their lips almost touched he wasn’t so sure anymore — if it was a joke or not.
gentle touches, gentle gestures … he wasn’t really used to it, only remembered harsh skin to skin contact from his father but Iseul? he never had anything BAD in mind when he saw him. Around him, he felt SAFE and then … their lips touched. For a moment, he did not know what to do, should he push him away, should he just do NOTHING? Time Traveler did not know much about himself and he, for sure did not nothing about FEELINGS.
&&. so he stood there, Iseul’s lips pressed against his and oh, he wanted to GIVE IN but he could not, his brain kept him from doing so even though, his heart YELLED at him to just do it. It felt good, it was gentle and he could swear that Iseul tasted like CHERRIES &&. VANILLA. But even such a gentle gesture, such a well-meant act of affection was not understood by him, not yet … there was still so much to do, so much to figure out about himself.
carefully, he raised his hands, long fingers pressing ‘gainst Iseul’s chest, gently pushing him away just a little. ❝I’m… I’M SORRY❞ words whispered, lips parted and head shaking slowly. One hand was raised, placed on his cheek. How soft he was … so petite and wonderful. Traveler did not deserve him, his love and affection for he could never give it back the way he wanted … ( NO, DESERVED IT! Iseul deserved to be loved! ) ❝you are too good, too PURE❞ and he meant it, never did he say such words before. Always tried to keep the other away from him but on the same hand – tried to keep him CLOSE.
his thumb brushed over his cheek gently and his head was tilted to the side. ❝I do not belong here … I know that now and you should not waste your PRECIOUS time with someone like me❞ as much as he adored him, as much as he needed him … he also wanted to go home and that would mean to leave Iseul behind, no matter what. ❝you deserve to be loved but I can not give you that as much as I would want to…❞ and he felt his heart ache, he never wanted to HURT him but he was sure that he was doing that just now. ❝you deserve better, you deserve so much more … and I? I do not deserve YOU❞
slowly, he lowered his hands from his cheeks, he wanted to smile but he could not, not right now. ❝but you should know … that I do LOVE YOU, just not like you need it❞