@ofrejects sent ‘Dear ex-boyfriend’ | meme, still accepting.
Dear Polo,
I cannot believe that you are gone.
I called your number twice today, just to hear your voice. I don’t know why I always expect you to pick up. You won’t. Not anymore. Every day when I wake up I have this strange feeling that this is a nightmare. I was so used to having you here with me and I took you for granted. I’m so sorry if I ever made you feel as though you weren’t enough. You deserved so much better.
I did not always deserve your love, to have someone like you loving me. I know you didn’t always believe in yourself, and sometimes I was too selfish to reassure you. What I should have told you back then was that you have a beautiful soul. I should have said that you were more than enough, and that no matter what the future could hold, I’d be by your side. Even if it was just as friends. But I haven’t been a good friend either. I was too selfish to help you while you were going through hell, and I will never forgive myself for that. I wasn’t here for you, and you didn’t hesitate to jump into the swimming pool to save me.
I never told you, but it wasn’t the first time you were saving me. You saved me so many times when we were together. I loved you. I genuinely did. You will always be my first love, the first boy who made me feel special, the first one who understood me and made me laugh when I was sad, who made me smile whenever I was tired of being the trophy my parents liked to show off.
I miss you. I will always miss you. Your name is carved in my heart forever, and I will always remember our first date, our first kiss, or how we used to talk for hours without running out of things to say. I will never forget this, I will never forget you.
I am sorry.
Always yours, Carla.










