#ofzola

[ofhvney]

✉ ツ

✉ — a text that WASN’T SENT. 

[ 4:32 am ] i saw your name on that list.[ 4:35 am ] this is definitely some “too little too late” bullshit on my part, but you’re important to zar, so here i am[ 4:40 am ] i guess what i’m trying to say is you’ve got one more person on your team. [ 4:40 am ] if that’s something you want.

ツ — an EXCITED text.

[ 11:21 pm ] i’m doing this purely to steal zar’s thunder in breaking the news to you[ 11:22 pm ] your advice worked!!! it fucking worked, you goddamn miracle worker[ 11:22 pm ] alright that’s all i’m being summoned back to bed now

[bird-was-here]

look into my eyes 😚

| Hope | Love | Passion | Hate | Resentment | Envy | Indifference | Confidence | Insecurity | Greed | Desire | Optimism | Spite | Hostility | Kindness | Warmth | Intelligence | Experience | Trauma | Aggression | Gentleness |  Arrogance | Pride | Lust | Cruelty | You’re soft | You’re trusting | You seem honest | You’re humble | You’re cold | You’re closed off | You’re reserved and guarded | You’re unfeeling | You’re remorseless | You’re heartless | You’re inhuman | You’re frightening | You’re frightened | You’re devious | You’re unpredictable | You’re struggling | You’re lost | You’re broken | You’re disheartened | You seem headstrong | You seem difficult | You’re stubborn | I see hope | I see purpose | I see absolute conviction | I see compassion | I see a shining light | I see shattered remains | I see something familiar | I see a friend | I see an enemy | I see a lover | I see thirst for blood | I see malicious intent | I see pity | You’re pitiful | I see darkness | You’re unwavering | You’re pure | You’re noble |

[nevaehporter]

!

“zola is literally the best cousin i could ask for. like ever since we were kids, we always got on really well and i’m just so happy that she’s in my life. even if she’s always harping on me about not isolating myself or making sure i go to therapy, she’s just…the best. i know that i can be a lot sometimes, or most of the time, but it really means a lot that she always puts in effort and tries to help. she’s like my good influence in a way. not in like, i’m a bad kid who needs to be reformed. but she keeps me in check when it comes to things like my mental health and she’s really good about checking in on me even when i don’t wanna be checked in on. which is obviously the time i need to be checked on the most. yeah, she’s great. even if she wasn’t a family member, which i’m eternally grateful that she is, i feel like she would still be one of the best people in my life.”

[nevaehporter]

nevaeh hadn’t seen zola in a few days. she had essentially kept to herself for the most part. despite the texts and calls she had received, she had ignored most of them. she knew it was wrong, and she knew zo just wanted to help. but at this point, she was so...tired of everything that she wasn’t even sure if she wanted help. she just wanted everything to stop. but it didn’t. it kept on moving while nevaeh stood still and lethargic. 

she was trying to get through some homework, the only thing that actually brought her some sense of normalcy and structure when she heard a light knock on the door. she frowned, getting up from her desk and making her way to the door. there stood her cousin.

nevaeh’s heart ached a little when she saw zola. she knew that she had hurt her, by isolating her and icing her out. she wished they could go back to the way they were when zola visited ashmont when they were children. just two kids who were carefree and the only blood they ever thought about was from scraped knees and papercuts. but they couldn’t. they were here now. and now was different, now was painful, now was too much for nevaeh to handle. “hi,” she said in a weak voice, not knowing what else to say. 

@ofzola

[ofhvney]

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name: zola 

picture:

ringtone: make it sweet by old dominion – ( i know you get tired, i know you get down / i know you get sick of this soul sucking town / but let’s make a little lemonade if lemons is all we got )

last text sent: zar said you like clueless. we’re watching it tn at his place if you want to come join? i swear i won’t eat all the popcorn before you get here

[nevaehporter]

it had only been a few hours since the incident. she stayed until the police came, explaining everything to them, albeit with a shaky voice. after that, she tried to go back to her room and process what just happened. but all that happened was she just screamed and cried until she was rocking back and forth with her knees pulled to her chest on the floor. 

she decided that she couldn’t be alone. as much as she usually relished in being alone, being alone now terrified her. she was worried that another ‘ mural ’ or something of the sort would show up. she knew she had a target on her back from the person who had been tormenting her for the last few weeks since daisey’s disappearance and death. 

her eyes were blurry from the tears, her voice hoarse from the screaming. she wasn’t sure how she could feel normal tonight. she stopped rocking back and forth enough to take out her phone and text her cousin. “hey, do you think we can have that sleepover now?” although the text didn’t come out as coherently as that and was riddled with misspellings because she could barely see the screen. grabbing a couple of clothes and her stuff and cramming it into her small backpack, she made her way to zola’s room. knocking on the door lightly, she said in a hoarse voice, “hey, zo, it’s me.”

@ofzola

[nevaehporter]

☎

NAME: zo 💘💜💕RINGTONE: we are family by sister sledgePICTURE:

LAST TEXT RECEIVED: nev pls stop isolating urself ): u know it’s not healthyLAST TEXT SENT: i’m listening to my sad playlist on repeat 😔👌

[bird-was-here]

🍸🍷

Sweet Life

Being genuinely interested in someone’s day, “just tell me where you are and I’ll come get you,” frappuccinos with lots of whipped cream, driving with the windows rolled down, involuntary smiles, sudden laughs, matching sunglasses, fizzy drinks, singing along to Diana Ross, flipping through records, snapchat stories, the sparkle emoji, sandcastles, butterflies, snowmen, toffee, Stevie Wonder’s “Don’t You Worry ‘Bout a Thing”