do i really have a choice? shunshi / @ohkraken asked.
Jūshirō needs not say anything in the moment. His expression says it all. The furrowed eyebrows, the sullen frown, green eyes looking through to Shunshi's heart and soul. It's not so much disappointment he feels as it is... sadness, partial guilt. Here they sit, pondering past, present, and future in the ways only old men who've endured hardship can. It's been rough to live on borrowed time the way Jūshirō has. Every moment of weakness ( of relapse ) he's brought back here to rest and heal, before he's released and then back in its clutches once again. Such is his life, much to his disdain. The captain lifts a hand from his cup and looks at it. He shakes the image of crimson away by wiping it off on his hakama. A sigh escapes him as he takes a small sip of his tea.
❝ You don't have to follow me, you know... ❞
And yet, Shunsui still does. Time after time, they sit here just outside Ugendō, sharing a drink together in the grass. It's been this way for centuries now. Standing side-by-side, picking each other up when the other falls -- it's as natural as breathing. Jūshirō knows it in his heart: he'd have no one else sit with him so soon after he's recuperated. As much as he trusts his subordinates, there's sides of him that they shouldn't be subjected to. This, like many other things, can only be entrusted to someone who's witnessed the cruel flow of time for as long as he has.
❝ You could have chosen to walk away and left me to my fate at any time, just like how you can choose to leave now... but you haven't. I'm grateful for that. ❞ Looking back to his oldest friend, a small smile settles on Jūshirō's face. ❝ Thank you, Shunsui. For this -- and for everything. ❞







