#ojiitalkis

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thank you so much for all the songs you sent btw!! I can’t answer to each one of you but I loved a lot of them and they helped me draw the stuff you can see on my nsfw twitter

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in a weird twist of events, writing all that, letting it out, really did help my mood just now. It feels like I released something rly heavy and I’m feeling better now.

maybe I should do it more often

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I’m annoying and whenever I’m in pain I want to say a hundred time in how much pain I am!!!!!!!!! But I can’t do it in any social media, I have to restrain myself bc I have to be at least a little professional!!!!!!! But I’m in pain!!!!!! It hurts!!! It hurts and it doesn’t stop and I took a pill for the pain I’m feeling rn and it’s not doing anything and I’m tired of being in pain for various reasons, one after another, it never ends!!! I want to stop visiting the hospital!! I want to stop wasting money on medication!!! STOP this circus, body!!!!!!!!!!!! COMEON. 

First the surgery and all the pains that came with it. Various pains not only on my tummy but also on my back, because I tensed all my muscles to the point of giving me a huge headache for 4 days!! Pain on my tailbone because of having to lay down for so long, INSUFFERABLE pain on my tailbone!!! But I couldn’t sleep in any other position because of my wounds!! So I had to sleep in lapses of 2 and 3 hours, 4 if I was lucky and too tired and passed out for that long, but 2-3 hours, then get up from the bed and walk around for 2 hours so the pain on my tailbone would stop enough for me to go sleep again!!!! Also, something minimal but they hurt my mouth somehow so, on top of not being able to eat more than a handful of food for every meal, chewing was, for some days, also painful!!! And talking was too bc my throat was sore because of the tubes they used!!! And I’m not even going into much detail.

 5 days later the supposed infection and its own medication!!! some days later it resulted to be another thing, not an infection!!! So I wasted like 16 dollars on a bunch of pills that I still have, because the pharmacist was an asshole and sold me a box of 36 when I only needed 10, and I was too dizzy and in pain after the surgery to notice he did that, I just wanted the box with pills to go home!! But “you have to finish the 10 pills for the infection anyway”. ALRiGhty then. “After the last pill you can start the other treatment”, and after the last pill.. what happens? Mother nature happens!! And I can’t do the other treatment if mother nature is kicking my fckening ass!!! So I’m still not done fixing that one problem, I have to wait until my period finishes beating me up and then I can start the other treatment and see if I can finally be on my way to be ok!!! Because it’s not immediate, it’s another week of treatment, but being on the way to being ok from the (HOPEFULLY) last problem would be enough for me!! But until then I have to deal with period pains, that are, for some goddamn reason, stronger than ever before. Maybe because of the medication, maybe bc of the problem I’m having. Who knows. I’m dying anyway. o|-<

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steven needs to fuCking Leave

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esto amerita.... mirar videos de terror por una hora...

si....

estando sola en el departamento..... A very sound idea....

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TENGO TENDINITIS Y GANAS DE VOMITAR porque me comi una bolsa y media de almohaditas. Una bolsa de almohaditas de chocolate y media bolsa de almohaditas de mani. Y me quedaria dibujando hasta que se me pasen las ganas de vomitar pero noooo, me tuvo que dar tendinitis. Soy medio boluda que se le va a hacer.

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Captain’s log

Day 11:

i’m still addicted to this lil belial bich help me

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I’m still so thirsty for him it’s been 7 days and I’m feeling as crazy for him as the first day leet me go bruh