ugh I'm just so tired of feeling so shitty, you know? I just have that constant feeling of "oh ok what do I need to change about myself so that I'm not a total loser" and "oh how can I be someone that matters and someone other people would like." I feel like I am just always reaching for these unachievable goals that just aren't reasonable for myself. And even, if by some unknown miracle, I achieve them I know that I'll just see other things I don't like about myself and need to change. I'm just so tired of feeling like I will never, no matter what, be enough and I don't know what to do to change. Or well, not want to change. Be happy with myself where I am now. Not always be reaching for this perfect version of a person I know I'll never become. Anyway. I just wanted to type this out for myself, but I didn't want to just keep it in my notes, this blog has always been a place for me to express myself so I wanted to put this here. Like a diary entry I guess lol. Okie sorry if you read this whole thing. Love yourself. Bye