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@matthewmohawk looks like you and I both got haircuts.😀 Deuces!!

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well no news today and it completely ruined my concentration in class then I came home to a busted pipe and water all over my kitchen

Lovely! But I did do some checking & a lot of people say they had to wait a long time for their biopsy results. Which is kinda just cruel but I guess it’s the way things are? I’ll probably be a lot more calm tomorrow and not leaping every time my phone buzzed. My head is spinning with all the stuff I have to get done in the next 2 weeks between school and the stuff. I need to do for the move and finishing up boxing up all my stuff, it is pretty much insane.

But I’m still with email Henry Rollins, Damn it! And will be until the day I die and even though I may have taken on more than I can handle. I’m still gonna tackle it and tussle with the best of ‘em.

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I'm resting at home

I feel like I’ve been punched in the throat, but otherwise I am no worse for wear even though it was a bit hairy. My best friend, Kisha took me all the way to the hospital in San Angelo & back and bought me food afterwards, even though I was completely broke and could not even pay her for gas. As soon as I get paid I have to do something nice for her. It’s very hard when you have almost no family and even fewer friends. My sister is back in town and brought me potato soup and ice tea and I think I’m finally gonna go ahead and try to get some sleep. I had crazy nightmares all last night and I’m sure it was just stress.

I’m pretty proud of myself, though I didn’t panic. I didn’t even get uneasy until they started to drape me with the surgical drape and then I realize s*** was on.

But I got through it like I always do coz I got 9 lives, Homie, I ain’t dead yet.

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Asking a favor

Took a long, hot bath and listened to some Wilco, trying to get ready for my biopsy tomorrow. I never thought I would say that word in relation to myself. But so it is. I’m trying not to freak out, too bad. I figured God would not have brought me this far would not have given me a new job and a new house in a new town with an absolutely epic boss and all these great new opportunities to just have something horrible happen to me. so tomorrow one of only a handful of friends I have in this town is going to drive me 2 and a half hours away to a much better medical facility where I am going to have a needle stuck into my neck and we’re going to find out if the stuff that is on my thyroid is cancerous or not. Even if it is the procedures won’t be invasive as far as I know I won’t have to have chemo or radiation. They can be shrunk by being injected with iodine. But as relatively better as that treatment is I would prefer it not to be cancer at all, so if you guys, um. Can and will send me some good vibes and good thoughts and prayers to your greater power of choice? Be it God, Krishna, Buddha, Allah or Davey Havok.💚💙🖤💛❤💜💕⚜🔆✝☪🔯☯🕎🕉.

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Heading to the interview

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Stranger Things

As I was sitting here missing Chris there was a knock at my door.  It was my punk friend Frank.  He has recently changed his name to Frank and I am glad b/c he used to have the same name as my exhusband.  In some parallel universe somewhere Frank and I are probably married.   I had a mad raving crush on him when he was a freshman and I was a senior and he was this little skater punk in a mohawk and a Vandals t shirt.  Decades later he got to see me with my first mohawk.  All this time, through career changes, him becoming a Buddhist, the suicide of my niece (who was one of his friends as well) and all the crazy shit that makes up a life, I am so glad we are still friends.

We are always hovering on the edge of something more and I am always so very happy to see him. God knows I never get visitors out here. It was a horrible week but last night and tonight were surprisingly good.

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shoutout

to @oldmanstatus

for the likes from last night! You need to post more!  Dig your blog!