Blog Entry 2 - Reading & Reflections
Do you ever read something that shifts your entire worldview, and then you're done reading but the world's still turning and no one but you will know just how much your emotions and headspace have shifted? Yeah. I just finished what was basically an entire novel on a website you typically wouldnt expect to learn profound lessons from, but here I am, with a new look on relationships and maintaining a healthy one once again. For reference, my love life is a mess in the sense that it's nonexistent. I have a history of either pushing down feelings until I've lost the person for good or pushing away the person by making my feelings known. It's never really worked out for me, the whole romance thing. Maybe that's why these things hit me so much harder, like maybe if I change this other thing about myself, the next time will turn out different.
^^ I actually wrote this out a while back but didn't get around to uploading here!!
Still applies though, I've read a lot more things since, and a vast majority has gotten me to rethink things in life!! Not necessarily agreeing with everything I read, but thinking about all the different perspectives there are, and encouraging myself to work on thinking beyond myself when I make decisions. Not gonna lie though, being aware in the exact moment is still a task, since I've spent so much of my life using escapism and staying in my own head. I regret it a lot, because I've missed out on so much just because I couldn't get out of my own head.
This blog is a little peek into my mind I guess, hope me sincerely screaming into the void will get an equally sincere reply someday,,
( ￣▽￣) -Oleander