You grow into your father’s dark hair so well that you can see the pang of familiarity and hurt in your mother’s eyes as she looks at you at times. Your father, though his presence was often fleeting, would always muss it with a look of pride in his own eyes. It was as though he was happy to remind your mother of exactly who you were. So, you dyed your hair a light brown in grade school, just so you would never see her cry again because of you.
ISTJs don't make many assumptions, preferring instead to analyze their surroundings, check their facts and arrive at practical courses of action. ISTJ personalities are no-nonsense, and when they've made a decision, they will relay the facts necessary to achieve their goal, expecting others to grasp the situation immediately and take action. ISTJs have little tolerance for indecisiveness, but lose patience even more quickly if their chosen course is challenged with impractical theories, especially if they ignore key details – if challenges becomes time-consuming debates, ISTJs can become noticeably angry as deadlines tick nearer.
MORAL ALIGNMENT: lawful evil —
A lawful evil villain methodically takes what he wants within the limits of his code of conduct without regard for whom it hurts. He cares about tradition, loyalty, and order but not about freedom, dignity, or life. He plays by the rules but without mercy or compassion. He is comfortable in a hierarchy and would like to rule, but is willing to serve.
A lawful evil character will keep his word if he gives it and will never lie, although he may mislead or withhold information. He will attack and kill an unarmed foe and will harm an innocent. He will use torture to extract information, but never for pleasure. He will kill only to advance himself, never for pleasure. A lawful evil character will use poison. He will not help those in need without a reward and he prefers to work with others. He responds well to higher authority, is trustful of organizations, and will always follow the law. He will never betray a family member, comrade, or friend. Lawful evil characters respect the concepts of self-discipline and honor.
ZODIAC: capricorn —
The Capricorn-born people are the most determined of the entire Zodiac. The most prominent qualities of the Goats, as they are called, are that they are ambitious, conservative, determined, practical and helpful. They make good team leaders and organisers, because of their single-minded focus on their work, sense of responsibility and sincerity. They are perceived by people around them to be workaholics, unemotional and detached. Sometimes their negative qualities – suspicious, resentful, inhibited, pessimistic and stubborn – are seen clearly, but deep inside the Goat is a humble heart. They are soft, and their hard outer shells are meant to guard themselves against the hurt caused by rejection
TEMPERAMENT: melancholy-choleric —
The Trainer is more forceful than the other Melancholies. They are systematic, precise thinkers and follow procedures in both their business and personal life. They are attentive to detail and push to have things done correctly, according to their own predetermined standards. They are sensitive and conscientious. They normally behave in a diplomatic manner except when it comes to deviating from standards they have accepted. They can then be very forceful in insisting the right way be followed. They are not socially active, preferring work and privacy to people. They tend to have difficulty in relationships because they are not flexible and they can be abrasive when communicating with others. They make decisions slowly because of collecting and analyzing information until they are sure of the best course of action. To be highly motivated they need a structured environment with clear rules and procedures, time to organize, collect information, think and the freedom to develop a plan.
NARCISSUS LIES; a mix for the beautiful man just waiting to drown. ( listen )
i. runaway by kanye west ( let’s have a toast for the douche bags / let’s have a toast for the assholes / let’s have a toast for the scumbags ) | ii. wrong (feat. kehlani) by zayn ( you’re looking in the wrong place for my love / don’t think because you’re with me this is real ) | iii. sweet life by frank ocean ( satellite need a receiver, can’t seem to turn the signal fully off / transmitting the waves / you’re catching that breeze ‘til you’re dead in the grave ) | iv. young god by halsey ( he says, “oh, baby girl, don’t get cut on my edges / i’m the king of everything and oh, my tongue is a weapon / there’s a light in the crack that’s separating your thighs / and if you wanna go to heaven you should fuck me tonight” ) | v. worship you by vampire weekend ( energetic praise you wanted / any kind of praise you wanted / little bit of light to get us through the final days you wanted ) | vi. you’re so vain by carly simon ( you’re so vain / i’ll be you think this song is about you / don’t you? don’t you? ) | vii. desperado by rihanna ( if you want, we can be runaways / running from any sight of love / yeah, yeah, there ain’t nothin’ / there ain’t nothin’ here for me / there ain’t nothin’ here for me anymore / but i don’t wanna be alone ) | viii. bang bang by nancy sinatra ( now he’s gone, i don’t know why / and ‘till this day sometimes i cry / he didn’t even say “goodbye” / he didn’t take the time to lie ) | ix. these four words by the maine ( so listen to your friends and leave me alone / i’m just a boy, i’m drunk, i’m twenty-four ) | x. tennis court (flume remix) by lorde ( but my head’s filling up fast with the wicked games, up in flames / how can i fuck with the fun again, when i’m known? )