i disappeared
speak like a man. walk like a man. think like a man. with words harsher than bricks, i forced myself to just, just be a man
i dragged myself out of my body, without my consent i pushed in and i forced myself to take in i pierced it through my body the notion of predefined masculinity
swallow whole, now a sexual desire for cleavage and pussy, curves of her body, her luscious lips. deepen this voice. no, heavier voice. be ready to fight, always. don’t you dare be scared. walk straight. no, straighter. and straighten that smile. stop. how dare you cry. you're crying again. how dare you.
i plead to myself, i can't do this keep quiet. i ripped my flesh out and replaced it with what a man ought to be
sometimes I still cry all times, I say, don’t you dare
I dragged myself out of my body, without my consent and emptiness is what remains
all i am, now, is nothing. i am nothing. am nothing. nothing.