i we just don't want our username to be ""abused"" anymore kinda. like.. we (personally) love the phonetic wordplay of abuzd. and we were, in-fucking-fact, abused. a lot. by a lot of people. a lot a lot of times. in a lot a lot of ways. until. like. 3 years ago. before maeve just dropped into our DMs out of left fucking field. if mauve didn't just............. find us. when she did. i cam say with 99.5% certainty that we'd be dead by now. dead like...... a Long time ago now. like years ago, dead.
so prior to maeve and opal the bunny burrow here. making this home. .. we woulda defs checked out. like ha ha bye. 👋👌🤌🖕🤙👋
we've been defined by our abuse, collectively. so that's hard to let go of. the idenitity in that. but I'm not letting go of Our Idenitity. I'm letting go of our power struggle dynamic within ourselves to descern what's "Good" or "Bad". spectrum words. black and white isn't our shade, you'll find is in the blue and grey left fields 🗯💬💭
anyway "abused" just isn't what I want our reception word to be.
hi welcome to our blo--"WEEEEE WE R E ABUUUUZED !!""" --oH okay (._.'))
like ... idk. I'd rather our url spark a question. than make a Statement. about me or us. or anything. questions/theories/warm/inspiring >>>> answers/facts/hard/cold y'get it