Dear blog,
I am way over the guy I talked about last time. It is so freaking over. I mean I cannot even begin to describe how over that shit is. He is completely wrong for me! The Anna effect of course happened and exactly 14 days after I had started liking him, I stopped overnight.
He was the worst kisser I’ve ever had the displeasure of kissing with. And I have kissed a lot of people.. I mean a lot. I cannot even count the amount on two hands.. I think it’s over 40.. And still he takes the price of being absolutely horrible! I’d like to think of myself as not being shallow, but the bad kiss might have had something to do with me not liking him anymore.
He is very angry with me now, and it might be because I told him I didn’t want a relationship with him and then nearly had sex with him… only to leave him with blue balls and go to sleep.. I’m kind of a bitch. I know, you do not have to tell me that.
I am still flirting with my film teacher, and on that front it is going very well. We know the game and it’s like we are dancing around each other unable to even stop ourselves if we wanted to. He’s got a wife, and we both know that nothing will happen, but I think we are both equally curious about the other. I mean we get each other in some weird higher level I think, and it is of course very exciting with the age difference and the teacher student aspect and the sneaking around and the “being the other woman” aspect.
On another note there’s a new guy I am kind of interested in. I am however also trying to be not so interested in him. The reason? He’s the sweetest guy I’ve ever had the pleasure of holding hands with. He is seriously so kind and awesome and concerned with others’ that I cannot and must not let myself like him. For I know if I like him, it’s only a matter of time before he likes me back. And well… I guess the ship has already sailed. He likes me, I know that. we snuggle during movies, he puts his arm around me, and I’ve just now come back to my room from movie watching and holding hands with him under the blanket… So I basically just contradicted myself and I can now claim once again that I am a bitch, who could not keep her curiosity to herself and caught the sweetest most awesome guy in yet another round of the Anna effect.
Okay… so concerning that guy I just wrote about… This is me writing several weeks later, and yeah things didn’t go as planned. He kept pushing me, I warned him about my ‘Anna Effect’ and he like all other stupid guys believed that he’d be the one to break it. So I let myself like him and I let him like me… and then it faded… but it faded in a nice way this time, I don’t hate him now. I usually find something so annoying in a guy that I can’t stand being close to him, but I kept this one in my close group of friends. He is a very dear friend and I do still enjoy spending time with him. I am actually very proud of how I handled this crush.
So the new guy you ask? He is something different… Oh and I also had a crush on a girl here, she’s bi like me and it was like a week of crushing on her and then it was over. But the new guy… oh wow.
He is from Hungary, and he is amazing. He is taking it slow with the chase, just like how I want it to be, and there’s a lot of teasing and misleading and drama… I hate to admit it, but he knows how to get me. He’s arrogant one minute and then the next he’s sweet and inviting. He’s a player and it has been rumored that he’s a cheater too… but I just can’t stop myself from getting all worked up about him… and can I just say that I am on my 14th day in liking him, and I still like him. So far he’s the one that lasted the longest, and hopefully he’ll last for much longer than this.
