anyone else has gets this surprised feeling once you see signs that ppl online actually... enjoy when you talk to them? and they notice when you're gone? and they appreciate you? like i imagine everyone just wants me to shut up or i'm imposing on their own online space but then they keep... getting happy when i'm included in the conversation? especially when it's ppl i look up to, and feel like i'm definitely inferior to. it literally blows my mind













