#online entry

[thatredlady]

sometimes I watch the music video for Never Tear Us Apart by INXS and I start to cry. it's incredible how much that song and that music video mean to me. it just seems like Michael really knew about my life or something. it really gets in my soul.

[thatredlady]

monday, 10 january 2022. 2:58 am.

I always love hearing his voice. the way he jokes about everything and yet he is the most serious person ever. the way we have the same sense of humour and the same way of thinking. I love it when he jokes about me, if he only was here we would probably end up kissing after I repeatedly tell him to stop it with those jokes. he makes me feel so weak, like none has ever done before. weak in a positive way. I've never felt like this with anyone. I mean, not that I had many guys in my life, only one - the worst - and some other “flirts” but nothing that serious or reciprocal. but the way he makes me feel is just different. I just feel like a different, a better person whenever I talk to him. I love it that we can talk about anything without feeling judged and without any shame, I love it that we go from funny shit to very serious topics and it never gets boring. even when we are just silent, it's like silence has a beautiful, warm sound which gives me a similar feeling to being in his arms. but I've never been in his arms - not yet, at least. but that's what I want the most in my life and that's what I've always wanted during these miserable years of my life. and I am going to do all that it takes, I am going to do anything for this, for him, for us. I know the universe will be by my side, I know fate is with us, because this is a divine connection and I feel it deep in my soul and my heart. we are connected by fate. we are fate.

that red lady