#onlyonpalisades ... life has clearly seen its ups and downs lately. my pool of available emotional energy seemingly comes and goes. but i’ve learned to say NO to things and not to drain myself and expect that i can handle the bumps in the road. i recently asked someone how they were and they said “i can’t complain” i felt like they were maybe not being honest with me so i asked if it was the truth. they said it was not but it’s the best answer they can give in passing. i immediately wanted to adopted it as a way i could answer that question too. they’ve told me a couple of times that rewriting your narrative helps with acceptance and moving beyond past trauma and disappointments so why not practice it on the daily? i am looking forward to a future and it open possibilities like i haven’t maybe in a longer time than i would to admit. as someone who is literally trained again and again year i year our refresher after refresher in human error reduction and how to expect the unexpected there are things and behaviors i have allowed myself to dwell on. i am going to keep working on being in the moments. i am going to continue to try and not let that adult child of alcoholism and dysfunction be the controlling force and emotional bully of me and my life. i feel like it’s been a while since i journaled and spoken with you all (ie posts to the void) but i’ve felt a bit overwhelmed at moments the past couple days and figured i’d just let some things out while pointlessly pairing it with an old photo. i am OK and even in many moments i am better than OK. i have a lot to be happy about and celebrate i have other things i still continue to struggle with. such is the story of my life. hope whenever i get settled into a new place that i can get back to creating somethings photo or ink and paper or food or music related i look forward to a time of less chaos and more simplicity and maybe just maybe a little peace and a little quiet once in a while. (at Riverview Park) https://www.instagram.com/p/ByqVpXDH84Q/?igshid=21ffilmx2lm8