#onmyown19

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10.03.2018 // 14h50

I haven’t been on tumblr in quite a while....

Hi ! How are you all?

If anyone saw my last post, I had a meeting with my thesis supervisor and it didn’t go well either. She thought I was too “rational” and too general. She told me that it was getting late in the year and that I should think of asking the master’s director to redo my year (just because of my thesis). She gave me 2 weeks to think. I had the time to be ill as well as defeated, I also tried to work on getting a new topic, and finally I saw her yesterday and we decided on one topic (she decided more than me but it was from all the clinical material I gave her). Without any surprise i realised that what she wanted was something super psychoanalytical (I’m studying a master in clinical psychology, psychopathology and psychoanalysis but still, I don’t want to be a psychoanalyst, I want to use psychoanalysis as a tool alongside other theories - I’m super ambivalent, and my thoughts seem kind of paradoxical xD). 

Anyway, I need to give her something in 1 week (I have so much things to do that I am not sure how I’m going to do this, but whatever). I have written one page today, I now need to go get ready since I’m going out to one of my friend’s surprise birthday party tonight (I so don’t wanna go, I have so many things to do and prepare!!! I don’t think I’ll be staying too late). 

Keep me in your thoughts and prayer. 

Thank you

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Every time I have an oral presentation I’m like “great! It’s with other people, I don’t have to talk alone in front of everyone”. 

Then, I start working with them (usually my friends) and I’m like “I hate everyone, I wish I could do this alone. Why don’t they listen to me? They’re so unorganized, and their outline is so not logical!!!”. Basically, I pull my hair out until the oral presentation is done ! 

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starting my internship today, wish me luck !! 😟

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Tea time 😁

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I’m missing London so much right now, I love this city !  Every time I go there it feels like home… I can’t wait to go back! 😃😍 

I have tickets to see Hamilton one Saturday in March 2018 so I’ll be missing one day of school - but i don’t care, I fought for those tickets & I’ll be able to see lovely London ! 😝  

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08.11.17   //  10H

Hello! 😊

I don’t have any other pictures beside this one. It was a wednesday, I was eating cold couscous, waiting for my afternoon classes to begin. 😅

Update on my internship: it was great ! I saw a lot of patients from different culture, different type of counselling; different type of problematic…. It was a good start, I hope it will keep on being as good as this. ☺ 🤞🏼  

Update on school: I’m drowning! I have three articles to read on transcultural psychology for this afternoon (20 pages each), a few classes to catch up on because tired me= bad notes; an oral presentation to work on; another case study to analyze; lots of books to read; I need to start studying because finals may be in January but my agenda is packed!; and lots of other things I forgot about….😣

Right now: I’m going to do schedule things I need to do because things got add up to my already made agenda; read those articles and then cook (and unload the dishwasher and do the dishes but whatever) 💪🏼💪🏼

I hope everyone’s having a beautiful day!😊😊 

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26.10.2017 // 11h

I have a hard time starting my studying. I’m so stressed and i have so many things to do ….

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12.02.18 // 10h20

I’m feeling like a failure. 

I had a meeting with one of my uni supervisor (the one who supervises our internship) and she told me that I am too discreet (story of my life) and that my work was superficial. I feel so bad. Plus, I have a meeting with my thesis supervisor Friday and i haven’t worked on my thesis that much. I have é pages to give her today of my work and I know that it’s superficial, badly written, and just plain rubbish. I have so much things to do and to thing, it is hard to actually work or study. I want to do everything perfectly so I have a very hard time actually starting anything since I know it will be rubbish anyway... Am I making any sense right now? Anyway, I’m writing this in a rush, I’ll probably write something longer and more in depth tomorrow.