hey so
remember when i said i was actually back this time well, funny story,,,,
i’m not! the big reveal nobody was surprised about
before i left for a while, i told you guys i was feeling really unwelcome in the community. that on top of the fact that my muse for arthur has been relatively weak and my motivation generally for roleplay has reached an all-time low has made be really uncomfortable on this blog. it’s nothing against anyone i’m following, or who’s following me. it’s just...
when i left my old arthur blog, i had over one thousand, going on two thousand, followers (shocker!). i was used to people clamoring to write with me, to asks flooding in when i reblogged a meme, and to compliments about my amazing arthur portrayal flooding in from all sides. this was what i had grown used to, as somehow, my blog had blown up in under six months. i didn’t realize what i was leaving behind until about a week after i’d archived the blog, which was around the time i realized i’d lost my niche in the community.
upon realizing this, i felt horrible regret. i missed all the old partners i had. i missed the interactions i’d had with wolfie, the harry potter universe that everyone seemed to relish in, even those not participating in it, and the generally carefree feelings and happiness i got from the blog. since then, those have all but disappeared, leaving me in the dust with a lot of memories and even more crushing nostalgia. i still miss everything my old blog used to be -- perhaps even more than i used to -- but to be frank, i don’t feel like putting in the effort to bringing it back.
my muse isn’t here for more than fan fictions and short skype threads, my general motivation is gone, and to top it off, i feel unwanted, unloved in this community, simply because i’m not used to not being popular. it’s nobody’s fault that i’m leaving. in fact, most of it is mine.
the point is,
this blog is on indefinite hiatus.
you can unfollow if you want to. i won’t judge. just know that i may be back someday, when i feel more confident and ready to put in the effort an active role play blog requires.
if you still want to write with me, feel free to follow my multimuse original character blog, zenxsyne. you can also talk to me there, on fanmail or on skype.
lastly, i’d like to say thank you to everyone who interacted with me regardless of my inactivity; to those who stopped interacting a while ago, but who used to be great writing partners; to those who followed, even without writing with, me; to every single one of you reading this. you’re amazing.
