>Twingaze: Begin packing
You didn't actually leave the hive last night. You wanted to spend a final day here for some reason. You don't really understand it yourself. Maybe you wanted to pretend that these trolls actually needed you here. You didn't sleep a wink, though. Instead you stayed up and cried for reasons that you deem to be childish. You stand up shakily and sniffle. It's not fair. Orestes and CKK lied to you. They said that they pitied you. They said that they would never leave. Now Win has yet another matesprit and CKK is dead. You laugh bitterly and shake your head. You never should have believed either of them. You'll never get to talk to Karkat again. After all you have no dream self. Each time you sleep you wake up in the void. Which is okay with you since the trolls there don't lie to you like every other troll seems to. You curse quietly when you feel fat tears roll down your cheeks again.
You can't take it here anymore. It's driving you insane.
Besides, the reason you're here is now dead. And you're a hivewrecker already. You pailed Orestes. A troll with a matesprit. And you didn't even try to make it seem black. Just another reason that you should have stayed on the street corner. Why did you think that you could change? You clearly can't.
You have to pack. Nadaya is expecting you.
You're starting to think against going to the caverns. Maybe you can stay on that boat forever. Or maybe you can go on another boat. One that is being built to fly among the stars.
