The Blessing/ The Cursing
The consciousness I never knew existed. For so long, it has lain beneath deception and duplicity. I decided to scavenge for it. Battling the urge to surrender, and return to my “normal self”. That self that They persuaded me was all I was to be. I scavenged for the consciousness, despite what I was told. On my journey, little by little, I began to find the consciousness. I discovered it buried with my knowledge of self. I thought I knew who I was. Three years ago I was so certain of myself; so sure that this was a new era. I was positive I would be successful, build a family, and be happy and no one would stand in my way. Afterall, it was my right to the pursuit of happiness in the Land of the Free.
Strange enough, I was completely mistaken. With each bit of consciousness I stumbled upon, I began to construct a clearer image of my being. I was condemned to a lifetime of suffering and hardship, with very little advancement by a heinous system. How terrible it was that my consciousness was a blessing and curse. I had been awaken to the discrepancies in the laws and the discriminations in the methodologies. My foolish, ignorant hope had been taken away and replaced with a degree of malevolence and sweet revenge. I carry my blessing and my curse proudly by virtue of knowing who I am, and getting to know ME better. Each day I discover more of the consciousness I never knew existed.
