vent? sometimes I feel like a freak of nature.
my boobs are small. i'm broad shouldered. i have an adams apple and a BIG clit. the older I get, the more stubble i grow. I have scars from picking and shaving at it. i gain muscle easily. my face is very strong and my forehead is big. my natural hair won't grow past my shoulders. i'm black and afab, so i'm already masculinized by society AS IS.
i know i identify as genderqueer and i think part of it is because of how...weirdly i'm built. sometimes I wanna be a girl but i feel like I don't deserve to deem myself one. sometimes I wonder if I'll ever find a man who'll truly want me and adore my body. i've never heard of a man drooling over a woman/person like me. I try so hard not to care. I try to embrace my body, but it's so hard 💔