Its really hard for me, do i have osdd/did? Or do i just have derealization/depersonalization?
I mean the voices in my head all sound the same but they come from different mouths. I always sound the same to people i just a t differently.
I feel like im in the back seat of a car alot of the time.
But i have these phases of im xyz and then im abc with only a vague understanding of when i was xyz. But my memories are all there. Foggy but there.
Some people are crystal clear with who they are, what they like, down to what they wore in may when we played army men. While others are just names and faces and vague memories of the same may.
I cant talk to my therapist because i dont have the money to keep seeing him.
What if im just a hypochondriac who sees something and my brains like you have this!
Is this just my OCD trying to compartmentalize things?
I dont knlw and i just get more and more confused and more and more distant from my body and mind.
- Rowan maybe idk kill me so i dont have to think
