#outofoneechans

[mafuraa]

i JUST FINISHED WATCHING TODAY'S MCA I'M CONFUSED AND UPSET AND PUMPED I COULD ONLY FIND A RAW BUT. BUT THE LOST TIME MEMORY BIT GOOD LORD

[mafuraa]

i hate the fact that my ship is popular. no matter what the good people in it do in order to give it a good image to what most of the people in it do to it-- oversimplify it and bastardize it--, everyone outside it will be completely disgusted by it because of what's already been done. everyone will be uncomfortable and/or annoyed by it and i'll feel guilty for shipping, and most of all, for roleplaying it. or i'll feel like the reason people ignore or avoid me in there is for that. the ship.

and this and like. two more other ships are the only ones under the radar like this??? i've seen ships 150 times more ooc than that but nobody takes that fun away from them?????

...i love my ship with all my heart, but in moments like this, i feel like a joke for even liking it. for taking it so seriously and for giving it my all to the portrayal. i'm just another disgusting joke in a pile of disgusting jokes.