#outofpersimmons

[ceruleankitsune]

just wanna say hello! my name is hotaru. :3 I've been roleplaying Gin for over four years now but this is the first time in a setting like this so I hope I do it right. ;3; it's nice to meet all of you!

[ceruleanserpent]

I'm back home for the time being, but I'm starting to have second thoughts about Gin. >_< I had some things said to me and I'm not very happy with them, so I guess we'll see.

[ceruleanserpent]

I'm just letting everyone know that I won't be here until Monday. ;w; I'm going away and I won't have any internet.

[ceruleanserpent]

To change my theme or not ... Hmm ...

[ceruleanserpent]

I got the sudden urge to write, so I'mma go do that. i'll still answer asks though~!

[ceruleanserpent]

-Dusts off cobwebs-

So as you probably heard from the lovely Momo-chan, I've decided to start using this blog again. However, I won't be here all time like I used to, as I have this blog here as my currently active muse. Not only that, due to the reasons that forced me to leave this blog in the first place, I'm gonna have to write up rules. ;w; I know, everyone dislikes them and I dislike them too, but I don't want another repeat of that, and I'm certain no one wants me to vanish again. Anyways, onto the fun stuff! Due to some convincing from nearly ten of you, I've decided to begin using Gin again starting tomorrow! :3

I won't be as active as I like, but I'm certainly going to try! So I hope we can make new memories and return to the wonderful relationships that both Gin and I had with all of you beforehand! If you'd like a thread of some sort or just small roleplays, feel free to message me, come find me on my Nagisa blog, or just message me on Skype. That's always there as well!

-Shuu

[ceruleanserpent]

I'm afraid it's finally time for me to move on from this fandom. Gin is my baby, yes, and he always will be. But I've lost my muse for him. I've put so much into this blog the past 6-7 months, and I've had fun, cried, laughed, and hurt over things here. This blog has been my life for as long as I can remember. But it's gotten to the point where my own health is suffering because of it. Don't get me wrong, I adore all of you, and I've just reached a goal on this blog. But I'm suffering because of it, and sometimes, one has to be selfish in order to live. So this is me withdrawing from something I used to love.

All the drama that has happened here is my fault. I can say that without even having to think about it. Even if it was someone else that started it, I'm always going to take the blame. It's just how I am. The drama and the fun times I had here are something I'll always remember. I've made friends and I've lost them here. I started dating a wonderful person. I made a powerful enemy. But do I regret any of it? No, because this blog let me become what I am today.

I had hardships and I cried, and I had days were I was the most popular thing in the world and had the confidence of the sun. And I had my days where no one talked to me and I felt like shit, just like everyone else. But I don't regret those either. I've always adored everyone, even the people that I've had drama with. Kindness is my weakness, and I've showed it to so many people. I've helped them as much as they've helped me, and I wouldn't trade them for the world.

I've gone through so much with this blog. Lost Bleach RP was created due to Gin. I gained my girlfriend here, the-manipulative-sex-god. I lost so many great people due to Gin too. I gained so many friends. I have so many people that love me, and I love them just as much. The only thing I regret is never talking with all of you. Which is my fault, and I apologize.

I've always been one of the laziest people this fandom has known. From my Tesra blog, neverending-loyalty, to my Shuuhei blog, shuuheii, to Gin. People were lucky if they got a reply a week from me. xD But good times are good times, and good times mean memories. 

I really love you all. I can say that without even thinking about it. I've become senpai, kouhai, Gin-sama, Wong Taicho, Triangles, Gin-Gin, and even Snake-chan. I've gotten so many nicknames, become so many people's friends. I love all of you. Yeah, I said it again, because no matter how many times I say it, I'll never be able to fully express it.

I may be leaving the fandom, but I'll still be around. You can always find me on Skype, misty.badger, and I'll still have Kaminari, Akarui, and Ichiru. ^_^ I'll only get there when I want to, but otherwise, I'm done with the Bleach fandom. You can all find me on these blogs, if you want; Camus, Syo, and Ai. These are the ones that I'll be on from now on.

I've had so much fun here, and none of it would've been possible without all of you there for me. Through drama and fun times, through tears and the realization that I might not live through the summer. Through my cancer scare and my hardships. All of you mean so much to me. 

All I can say at this point is don't forget about me, alright? I may not be here to see what everyone does, but I'll still be around. You never know, I might pop in at random times. I'll make Gin bug some of you every once in a while or something. Please, have fun, and never forget the good times. This is my good bye to all of you. Have a fun summer<3

-Shi

[ceruleanserpent]

I'm putting this under a read more, because it does contain trigger words. Please read at your own risk.

I had to go to the doctor's today. I thought I was going for just a routine check-up, but as it turns out, I may have cancer. They aren't sure whether it's in the early stage or not, and I have to go back for testing on Tuesday. I'll know by then what's going on. If it is indeed cancer, it'll explain why I have such a hard time breathing. 

I just wanna let you all know that whatever happens, I'll still try to be here. And I won't give up either. I'll keep on fighting. Even if I cry and get discouraged, I'm not gonna let it stop me. And I promise I will come back. But until Tuesday, Gin will be on a small hiatus. 

Let us just pray that it's not, and it's just a mishap. Try not to miss me too much?<3