#outofthemoment

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[nycwriter]

Yesterday, after a hard day’s work, I went to the Improv Theater class of my dear friend Anne at Alchemical Theater Lab. It was a real cure to play around with movement, sounds & words, letting go all tension of creating something “great”, but creating right out of the moment and communication instead, in a nicely international and diverse bunch of people. We had so much fun and laughed a lot. So this leads me to showing you some things I found at my feet walking New York City, reminding me that you always gotta find what makes you feel good right - here.    

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On Flow

I had a discussion with a friend last night on what attribute or quality we would want to wake up with if we could.

At first, I thought I wanted to have better focus and live more in-the-moment. I wanted to take the feeling of playing basketball or video games, of being mentally occupied by a combination of mechanical actions and decision making, and be able to apply it to everything else which becomes painstaking in its process.

There were too many situations in my life--during work, out drinking with friends, writing, even sex--where, right in the middle of it, I will be unnaturally aware of every action I take.  At least 80% of the time, my omniscience takes me out of a moment, and fragments a perfectly good time into a series of now-deliberate actions.

When out with my friends, it’s a distortion of perspective. Like being in third person, I will be aware of my body, its movements, and every line of conversation separated out like storyboard.

For work, it’s grasping scale: at first of what needs to be done, its sub-components, then the stifling understanding of progress, and ultimately a painful fragmentation of even a task which takes an hour.

Now being self-aware is pragmatic, but what I want is to be more selectively self-aware. I want to do something as simple as working out without interrupting it thinking about working out.

What I want in my life is flow.

Flow to enjoy the progression of a night, to painlessly chug along through what needs to get done, or to finish writing this without the breaks that weren’t even used to gather my own thoughts, but to examine my examination of the segments I made from things best left uninterrupted and whole.

[momentofrememberance]

((Sorry for my absence. I've been so busy I just completely forgot this blog. Now I'm back. Replies will be coming soon - you don't have to reply back, I understand its been a while. if you don't want me to reply, please message me))

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UNDER CONSTRUCTION

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I'm sorry my loves but I'm not keeping Melody. Another muse has called out to me from the depths of my brain.

THIS BLOG IS NOW UNDER CONSTRUCTION OR MAY BE DELETED

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Idk if I wanna keep Melody/Tiger Lily or if I want to recycle this account to make my Rumbelle baby.

[momentofrememberance]

((Got photos with a lot of awesome cosplayers and with Paul McGann, had two people ask to take photos of me/with me, told by many people that they liked my cosplay, had a stand off with Darth Vader, was taken prisoner by Stormtroopers, offered a jelly baby twice, and attended a panel to hear Sylvester McCoy. As days go this was one of the best. And I get to go again tomorrow!))