today was so weird for no reason. like nothing bad happened but everything felt wrong?? i woke up late, missed breakfast, got to school and instantly regretted being conscious. like why do mondays even exist.
had this one class where the teacher talked for literally the entire hour and i swear my soul left my body around minute 27. i caught myself doodling on my hand with a pen and didn’t even remember starting. also i’m 90% sure someone in my group project hates me but idk maybe that’s just the anxiety talking. love that for me.
after school i sat in the parking lot for like 15 minutes with my music on just... existing. not in a deep way, i just didn’t wanna go home yet. yk that feeling when you're just Not Ready to interact with the rest of life? yeah.
also i’ve been thinking way too much lately. like about how weird it is that one day we’re all just gonna look back at this mess and probably laugh. or cringe. or block it out entirely. like idk, it’s so strange being in the middle of what’s “supposed to be the best years” and feeling like you're lowkey losing your mind 75% of the time.
anyway. this post has no real point. Anyways hope whoever reads this is doing okay.
