After a year of no interest I've started feeling a craving to do cross-stitch again.
so eventually this:
will become this:
(with the guidance of this:)
(The finished section is part of the big owl's belly and tail.)
I'm continuing to feel like my brain is overstuffed on BL shows, and I can't handle watching anything new. I will probably at least watch The Eclipse final episode this friday, but otherwise I will likely take a break from continuing anything or starting anything new. I did finish my rewatch of Cherry Blossoms After Winter, which was once again charming and relaxing. And seeing gifs has been making me crave Utsukushii Kare, so I may rewatch that one too.
It's been about four months since I started watching BL, so that's about par for the course in terms of how long my hyperfixations last. I do want to keep watching and writing about shows, but it's not likely to be at the same pace or intensity that I have been. I regularly manage to keep interests and hobbies for decades, I just go through cycles of intensity with them. (e.g. getting back into cross stitch after a year.)
Also, I think I watched so much so quickly, and thought about it so much that my brain really did get full, and it's starting to go on strike. The idea of getting to know new characters and worlds feels exhausting instead of exciting. And I want watching BL shows to continue to be fun, so I'm not going to push it.
But all you tumblr folks are so lovely and thoughtful, so that's a big motivation to keep returning to BL.
On the good side of my changeable brain, over past few days I've finally been able to get myself to do a bunch of housekeeping tasks I've been putting off forever, and it makes such a difference in my living space. Still a long way to go, but it feels doable instead of overwhelming now.
Although I'm reminded that any time things start to change I get discombobulated and disoriented for a while. Even (especially?) when it's good changes. Who am I? Where am I? What's the meaning of life? But it happens every time, so I know now that if I just keep moving my brain will settle down.
