Iridescent Light: A Tribute
Ceased to exist, you chose to be. You never saw, Not even a glimpse, Of how you inspired me. Inspired me to continue to live. Told me to walk, crawl if I tripped. You told me that you’ll lead me, Even if I wasn’t actually with you. “Help!”, I wished you could’ve screamed. But, no. Not even once. Instead, you screamed for my name, In between your shouts. Screamed till your lungs gave out. But, that’s not all, right? You were also looking for yourself, right? I knew now that I was halfway right. Entering my own world, Invading my own mind. Thought you’d be one of ‘em. Hypocrites and Manipulators, Who used their words For their lies and greed, and my misery. Yet, you proved me wrong with your words. As you pieced it back together. My own castle of glass. Still, time passed with you by my side. We watched the shadow of the day pass by. Little by little, I made my steps towards my own light. And you didn’t leave by my side. You were the friend I clung to. The one who would be there Whenever I cross the bridge, The bridge I wished to burn down, Made by wretches and kings. The messenger, I thought you’d be. Your job was to guide and lead, or even heal, People who were powerless, like me. But no, you weren’t that. Even if you covered yourself with shining tinfoil, You were also like me. It’s the little things that give you away. The things I overlook and didn’t notice a thing. Easier to run away your problems, I know that. I did that once, a long time ago. But, you stopped me halfway. Breaking my habit of escaping, picked up my shattered pieces. Even when I was one step closer To my dreams and future, You were still there, holding on for me, In case I ever faint and hit the floor once more. Right now, I wish for you to read this. I wished you held on, even if everything felt heavy. You let the world’s sharp edges get you from the inside Left the world and said “good goodbye”. You kept pushing me away, Telling me, while you’re bleeding it all out, that no one could save you, the “you” right now. And so you left and ran away. You did all that, before I could wake. I’m all right, but not fully right now. Truly, I felt numb. Even if it was the end, you still matter. You were the radiance I wished to never die. Yet you did. With the pretense you’ll be gone “for a while” When you meant it to be longer. Now, I’m wondering where you are right now. Are you walking on roads untraveled? Or a place where there’s no more sorrow. I don’t know, I’m still talking to myself. But, hear me when I say this: “ I wish you’re in a place, a place for your head, A place where you truly belong.” I pray for the skies, while looking up high. Looking for your iridescent light.
