Here … on the horizon

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Here … on the horizon
I dreamt
I was in a room filled with words floating around
as if they were air
but
they were thick
and heavy
and it was hard to breathe
they got stuck in my throat
and they were impossible to read
even though I really tried
to decipher what they said
I could not make any sense out of it
and I woke up gasping
out of breath
I knew you had been standing there as well
not saying anything
your back
broad and black
a shadow of darkness in the dim light
slowly dissolving into the night
Marvel
Oh
The view reminds me of you
your smile
Watch
the sunset flickers
and the sea is perfect
Glowing light dancing on the surface
and in the water drops on your skin
Your hair all messy in the wind
I taste salt on my tongue
Somewhere
A song
A memory
I hum
I sing
a feeling of a dream
يا تعبر عن شعورك و تكون واضح و تاكلها او انك تدعس على نفسك و تعيش وضعية الفتى الغامض شموخ عزي و احساسي لين تمتلي و تنفجر بأسخف الطرق.. لكن بكل الحالتين احب اقولك اننا بنموت
داخل صديقي عالم قد يخيفكم، عواصف و زلازل من أفكار و نيران لكنه يجيد الهدوء بطريقة خارقة و قد أصبح جزء لا يتجزء منه. هدوئه يحمل معاني لا يجيدها قاموس الكلمات، تنهيدة قد تعني ”لعنه“ و قد تعني ”انا مرهق“ و في أحسن الأحوال قد تعني”انا احبها جداً.“ لكنه عنيد، لا يريد منا إحتمالات ولا تحليلات. لا يريد أن نصغي لهدوئه. الله اوجد الهدوء فيه لكن أوجد فيه أشياء أكثر.. صديقي قد يخدشه حبل الموت ليحيي غيره، يبعد الأشواك عن الجميع حتى لا يمس أحدهم آذى. يمشي بحذاء ليست بحذائه، يلبس كل يوم ملامح ليست ملامحه، و إن ضحك ضحك لأسعاد غيره. حروفه تتشكل بطرق مختلفه عن بقيتنا قد يصرخ، نعم، قد يصرخ الى أن تتقطع أحباله الصوتيه و يصعب على الهواء الوصول لشعبه، الجدران ألفت أطراف قبضته و أقرب أصدقائه عصاً بيضاء تشعل نار حول رئته، ولا يبكي الا إن تغلغل جسمه سائل لاذع.. لكن، انا لا أخاف صديقي لأنه الأمان في عالمي الأسود و إن كنت سأتحدث عن سواد العالم فوجود هدوئه الملعون يمحيه ..
-oslo
everything is written.
everything that happens is written, they said.
but what about the pages ripped from my diary.
what about the things i couldn’t even tell myself.
if.
if you loved me, you would have saved me.
if you really loved me. you would have known how i was feeling.
that i was bleeding.
that i was needing.
that i needed your love.
if you loved me, you would have loved me before i cried for you to.
you would have had a feeling
to what i was meaning
that i was needing.
before i asked you to.