#pagethings

[wannabe-hero]

So um guys. I'm in Paris now.

[hnxp]

it's getting cold again here. my hands are shaking, but i should just shrug it off. things have to get better, they will someday; but right now, leave me be, leave me weak in this lonely night again.

[hnxp]

I'm afraid.

A lot of things have changed right now, and it scares me. I've been living this comfortably all my life surrounded by family and friends, and I was always dreaming about how my future would/could/will look like. Ya know, talking bout living independently on my own with the things I achieved with my bare hands. But now, the future is right in front me and I don't know what to do. Actually, I do but for some reason I don't want to take the first step. Maybe because I think I know what's gonna happen next. And I don't want it to happen, because everything is going too fast for me. Or maybe because I do not know what will happen next. I don't know. I feel so overwhelmed right now. Things that should make me happy suddenly scare me. I don't know. All I know for sure is that I'm afraid. Afraid of change. Afraid that I won't be able to see my family, my friends for a long time. I am so, so afraid.