#panic blog

[emobeebo]

Asking for a friend

Does anybody have any ~lucrative~ pics of Ryan Ross... like... in nipple tassels or anything? 👀 just wondering

[subterfugeanddetachment-blog]

Because this girl has literally gotten me through the last 2 months and helped me find me.

[panickedbythedisco]

my beautiful parents

[newyorkhippy-blog]

Just ordered a P!ATD crew neck and a P!ATD T-shirt, also a new nose stud, a nose ring, and a clear retainer for my nose piercing. Super excited! Weeee

[alexbaca]

Panic about making friends when I move to a different city is starting to set in! I am panicked because doing this is a priority, because I am moving in with my boyfriend (because San Francisco rent is insane; because I don't want to live in, like, the Sunset and spend all my time biking to him when I could spend my time, say, hanging out with the people I will become friends with; because I currently live in a gorgeous, perfect, one-bedroom apartment in Mount Pleasant and when he lived here, we spent more time in Chris' questionable group house), and because I will never forgive myself if I move across the country and become Boyfriend Girl.*

Two of my close girlfriends moved out of D.C. in 2012, and I don't see my other two close girlfriends that are still in/around D.C. that often. But I talk to all of them all of the time, still, so I'm not tremendously worried about my capacity to maintain friends (this used to be a problem for me, and I have spent some years working on it!). Anyway, I have hung out mostly with dudes since spring 2012, and that's also been a rewarding experience. TL;DR I have the best friends in the world and as someone who, growing up, was led to believe they were a difficult, antisocial introvert (I have mom issues that I am working through, but I have a great therapist—whom I am also leaving!), I am appreciative every day of the fact that I have forged really deep, really important bonds with a number of people. I put effort into not being a shitty friend. I am proud of this, and the returns—having awesome friends who are there for me, who I love in a way that makes me want to be there for them—are priceless.

Anyway, I have only in the past year or so started to get back into having friends (male and female) that I can be around for prolonged periods of time, talk about whatever with, and have inside jokes with. Matt and I, for example, occasionally devolve into our own language of references. This is cool. This is a weird, strange way of communicating that I believe indicates an intense, awesome kind of closeness. It's usually forged by spending a lot of time around each other. I will miss this. 

I know more people in San Francisco than I thought. (Transportation is a wonderful field in that way.) I'm not necessarily worried about finding people to get a drink with. But it takes a long time to forge the kind of bonds that I feel like I'm really starting to understand and appreciate for existing for the first time in awhle; I'm more worried about not having anyone to text, "What are you doing?" because I've finished my drink and don't want to go home quite yet. I'll get to a point where I won't be concerned that I'm annoying someone, or that I'll have people in my life whom I talk to enough to know their schedules, etc., but it's a learning curve that I'm not particularly looking forward to.

ETA: If you like pop-punk, transportation, yoga, going out to alt bars (though San Francisco has such a weird scene everywhere, all of the time, that this probably doesn't matter), watching X-Files, talking about bands signed to Dischord Records, eating snacks and drinking on couches, and find this funny, I'd like to meet you.

*That would also destroy my relationship, so.

[zoekazans]

i gotta go pay rent and actually go into the office and talk to them because i'm breaking my lease and they want us to pay like 400 dollars over what we've been paying and i'm all like no and being an adult is hard and i'm panicking?!

is this what being grown up is like all the time because i hate it?!?!

[feminknits]

But still I could have Friday night or Saturday night or this afternoon or now but nope nope nope nope

[bokuaka]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGH