sweatshirts make you safe
long sleeves to pull arms into
hoods to cover your crown
drawstrings to create an enclosed space
and the smell of you drifting down
when seeing you for weeks was impossible
wearing your clothes
made you feel close
my heart hurts for you
yearns for you
and circumstances unforeseen
make this harder than it needs to be
our now matching tattoos
a constant reminder
of love lost
of time spent
of words never said
i never asked you to be careful
but i guess my actions did
i always want to support you
but this is something i can’t let slip
every kiss felt like a gift
and every moment, the same
but i always needed more
a hug that almost brought pain
i saw a future in us
one that i hadn’t seen before
one of art, and smiles, and cooking
and opening doors
i love you,
i miss you,
i wanted you to stay
but our politics don’t connect
not in the correct way
i wish i could ignore
the abstract ideas
that seem more important
but those ideas are me
and i need to respect
myself more than you’re willing