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Yo does anyone know why papanorth is gone? Asking for my own sanity

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GUYS IMPORTANT TUCKINGTON TIME TRAVEL AU IDEA

Yo Yo Yo Okay so I know everyone is really into time travel aus rn (shout out to papanorth you don’t know me but your tuckington shit is life and you are bae) but I legit just have to share an idea I have.

So like legit because of some war weather it be chorus or a made up one most of the Reds and Blues die.  Like Wash is dead and so is everyone else except for like Tucker and a few other people.

And the remaining reds and blues discover some alien Tech that they learn can take them back in time and when deciding who should go they decide Tucker because he has the most experience. And originally they plan on him going back to before the war to give war tatics and insight or to straight up tell everyone NO WE ARE NOT FIGHTING, RUN AS FAR AWAY AS POSSIBLE but of course Tucker ends up going too far into the freelancer project.

And at this point Tucker has seen most of his friends die so he’s worn and broken and seeing Carolina and Wash in these younger forms doesn’t help at all because this Carolina isn’t the understanding and caring Carolina that he has gotten to know and this Wash isn’t the Wash he fell in love with.

And Tucker doesn’t know what to do but he’s smart enough to know not to fuck with time so he just kinda goes along with whatever anyone wants.  Like the Director knows he’s from the future but Tucker just fucking lies really hard when he asks the serious questions like “I have no idea what project freelancer is fam???” “Yeah I mean I work in Blood Gulch we’ve legit been doing nothing for like 10 years trust me”

So they have him stay there because the Director wants to know more about the future (Maybe they make him a freelancer in training, I don’t know) but everyone is really interested in him especially North and York and Tucker tries to keep ti himself but he ends up befriends North, York, South, CT and stuff, especially North and York and after an outburst Tucker has York asks about what his life was like, not the future but like friends and shit.   Tucker goes on and on about the Reds and Blues and all the stupid fun shit they do, never bringing up details on the ‘missions’ they've been on, and never mentioning Carolina, Wash or Tex. But eventually he starts mentioning that he has a boyfriend, and when he talks about Wash he’ll only say “My boyfriend”.  When they ask his name he doesn’t tell them because he doesn’t “Want them looking him up and fucking shit up” (eventually he ends up confessing this his boyfriend died.  Also just fyi he ends up staying there for awhile, like, a year)

And it starts getting really painful for Tucker seeing Washington everyday, because this Washington, David as he calls me because he feels weird using Wash for someone whos nothing like the Wash he remembers, is so happy and carefree.  Tucker starts feeling that maybe his Wash was never truly happy, that the happiness that David expresses is his true happiness and then after freelancer he was never able to get that again.  And he knows logically Wash loved him but he begins thinking that it was just Wash making the best out of a bad situation, because when David tries to talk to him and when he makes Tucker smile or laugh, Tucker always does this kinda sad smile, where he’s happy sure, but it’s also reminding him of a sad memory, which he knew Wash use to do the exact same thing all the time.

And Tucker starts feeling guilty about having fun with North and York and everyone because he feels like he’s betraying the fact that his friends are dead and he hasn’t even had the chance to bury them or his boyfriend and here he is just having fun and enjoying himself and- Shit is this what Wash felt like all the time?

And that REALLY gets him thinking because Tucker feels like utter shit and begins getting super depressed and then Tucker decided that he’s gonna fix things.  He’s gonna make it so that Wash get’s the life that he was meant to have, even if it means that he won’t be in it.

Meanwhile David is lowkey falling for Tucker hard.  Because the despite the shit that Tucker is going through he still smiles and is kind and makes stupid jokes, but there are times where he’s just gone, just away in his own thoughts and he looks so sad, and David just wants to be there for him and also figure him out.

Okay okay this is dragging on but long story short, Tucker set’s shit into place so that the tragedy that befell freelancer never happens, but he just needs to spill EVERYTHING to someone.  He decided to do it to one of the people it will effect the most, and chooses Carolina because he knows David is in love with him and he kinda loves him too but he’s also like “He’s not the same” and he really doesn’t want to put this much pressure on him.

Carolina flips and is like “Ima gonna tell the director” and Tucker is like “Pft okay do it.” because he literally has nothing to loose if he dies here he has already lost everything.  Finally Carolina is just like “No you know what this never happened” and she just leaves

So Tucker tells DAVID EVERYTHING and informs him on how to avoid it and finally after all that David just looks at him dumbfounded and hes like “Alright let’s pretend for a second your not crazy and this is all real, what will happen to you?” And Tucker didn’t think about it really so he’s like. 

“I don’t know, maybe I’ll go home and the Red’s and the Blue’s are still alive, maybe nothing will change and everyone still dead, or maybe I’ll be dead.”

“But would you be happy?”

And Tucker is caught of guard and he tries to cover it up with a joke “Well if I’m dead then I don’t have to worry about that lol.” and David just kinda glares so Tucker follows up with “What does it even matter?”

“It matters to me.” and then David pauses. “Why can’t you just stay here with us? Everyone likes you enough, you fit in well, and-”

And Tucker just kinda looses it like “You don’t really know me” “I’ve lied to you this entire time” “I miss my Wash but you’ll never be him” “Why won’t you just let me do this for you?” 

And finally, just to make extra sure that David actually fucking goes through with it he tells him how he doesn’t actually love David he just misses Wash and he needed something to fill the gap, even though that’s a lie because he ended up falling in love with David to.

And he just fucking leaves, he goes back to his timeline (Because he found a way to go back home sometime during this time) and when he wakes up he’s in a hospital.  He’s trying to piece everything together and he sees Wash at his side and he feels happy but then also fear and sadness, and before he can ask “Why the fuck are you here” everyone comes in saying they were worried about him.

Finally at night when him and Wash are alone Tucker asks him “Why are you here”. Washington is confused at first but then finally it sinks in and he smiles and he says “So is that where you went? I wasn’t sure when you’d actually do it, go back in time, but I knew it would happen eventually.” and Tucker is crying because other then everyone being dead, everything is the same and he asks him why he didn’t listen to him.

And then Washington just says. “Before you told me everything, whenever you would smile it wasn’t a real smile.  It was a smile sure, but it was always sad.  I always thought that, that I wanted to see you smile for real, I wanted to know what that looked like.  When you talked to me that day, I realized that the reason you couldn’t smile that way was because of me- or well, the meet at the time, and that you probably always smiled like that around future me.  Despite all you said, you were willing to sacrifice everything, even your life, so that I could have a ‘better ending’.  And then I thought, if the person that I date in the future was willing to do all that for me, then the future can’t really be that bad, can it?”

And Tucker just kinda losses it and cries in his arms and talks about how much he misses him. I’m sorry this is super long but I NEEDED TO LET THIS OUT

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sometimes I just like art so I can queue it up later... but sometimes @papanorth drops That Good Shit and I need to scream immediately because otherwise I might actually explode with emotions. 

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23! my number ;9 -papanorth

“A Thousand Miles” by Vanessa Carlton! 

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